This story is based on true feelings not true technology..


I couldn’t remember where I am at that moment. I woke up to see the rain pouring down the sky and I stood by the window watching the rain.. it falls so slowly down the glass … I touched it.. it was cold so damn cold.. just like my heart.. then something copied the rain and fell. .. when I wiped my face there were my tears.. why do I feel so empty inside? The guy I love.. oh yeah him… I picked up our picture together and there we were by the waterfall, smiling and hugging each other .. . those wonderful memories.. he’s been really busy I told myself.. but who am I lying? I told myself that night after night and I got used to the excuses..I know it’s been only a few days we didn’t see each other but can’t he at least give a short call?

I can’t say I’m not disappointed for what has happen but who am I to control his life? I’m just another lady in his life. .well I thought I was an important one until lately.. I slowly wiped away my tears .. hey I’m at least happy to have him in my life right? Well yeah I do love him so much.. I smiled a little .. why don’t I call him first? But I don’t wanna look so clingy.. I bit my nails.. I usually do that when I get lonely .. well now it’s a great time to do that.

Sigh. .what am I to ? just a few days ago, he came to me and held me in his arms and he kissed me right on the lips .. he kept telling me how happy he is and how much he loves me.. all of my doubts and fears flew out of the window … I feel so blessed.. I feel loved.. but when he went off, my heart went with him and then images of him cheating on me flashes thru.. maybe that’s why he was so busy.. no, I trust my man.. more than I trust anyone else .. I love him more than anyone else

So here I wait till he comes back to me so I can smile and talk to him once again .. when I can whisper in his ear telling him how much I miss him, telling him how much he meant to me, how different he is from my ex boyfriend, how much I love him but I simply couldn’t bear the thought of telling him that I feel neglected… and abandoned.. and used.. but I guess I couldn’t hate him or love him because I love him. Here I lie waiting and craving for the day he’ll come back to me and not knowing of the tears I have cried since he been busy for the past days.. when he would hold me in his arms again.. then I’ll have my moment of happiness till he goes away and my petals will drop like the flowers and I’ll be dead till the day he finds time for me again.. cause I love him.. he makes me happy even for just a while ..

touchin ryt..?sum of it really reflects my real life..well SOME oni..dunm go guessin ard..lol