SERIOUSLY.....

life's goin down in tubes..had never felt like the feeling i had now..lyk the feelings of being left,being abandoned,feelings of emptyness all rolled into one.Geez.. now i'm feeling sorry for myself..

day just could'nt be worse..even yelled at my whole family and blamin them for everything,and yet after 10 minutes of throwin fits and slammin doors dad still come into my room with a huge packet of mamee keropok that he bought for me.. *touched*

the oni gd ting gonna happen?yun yun gonna be here within hours =)) i tink i'm just gonna concentrate on that and forget everything else ..

I seriously couldnt see this coming..
I thought it was just a minor fight like always...
U said that u loved me and never wanted to let me go...
I believed you and placed my unconditional love upon you...
after 2 and a half days of silence,
I try to make conversation...
Nothing positive came out of it...
Now I'm left alone with nothing but puffy bloodshot eyes..
What's my next plan of action ?
What do I do?
..........................................................
right...
there's absolutely nothing I can do...
Helpless...
no way out of this mess...
I cant deal with this...
No matter how hard I try, I fail miserably..
Why does this keep happening to me ?
Why ?
What's wrong with me ?
Why cant I get this right ?
Crying is what I do...
but it doesnt make anything any better...

something i've stumbled upon from the my xanga's site..

When You Love A Girl...
1)Play with her hair
2)Talk to her in movie theatres.
3)Snuggle, Hold her hand, and lightly KISS her.
4)Hold her hand and walk.Hold her hand and run. Just hold her hand.
5)Pick flowers from other peoples yards and give them to her.
6)Tell her she looks BEAUTIFUL.
7)Introduce her to your friends as "The most amazing girl I know''
8)Sit in the park and talk to her
9)Tell her stupid jokes... Whatever it takes to make her laugh.
10) Write poems about her.
11)Walk with her, even if its just around the block.
12)Throw pebbles at her window at night.
13) SURPRISE HER.
14)Do things that make her SMILE, make her LAUGH, and make her want to KISS you right on the face.
15) BE SPONTANEOUS..
16)When she starts yelling at you, tell her you love her.
17)Give her back rubs.
18)Play football with her.
19)Let her fall asleep in your arms.
20)Call her even if its just to say hi.
21)Call her back if she calls you.
22)Jump on the bed with her.
23)Whisper in her ear.
23)Sing to her, no matter how bad you are.
24) Carve your names into a tree.
25)Get her mad, then KISS her.
26)Push her on swings.
27)Stay up with her all night.
28)Leave her little unexpected notes.. on the car, or on her door, saying how much she means to you.
29)Take her to romantic places and lay out blankets to look at the *stars*.
30)Make up nicknames for each other.
31) Show up at her work or apartment unexpectedly.
32) Send flowers and dorky notes that only you two understand.
33)Teach her guitar.
34)Lend her your cds.
35)Make her cds of songs that remind you of her.
35)Write her letters.
36)If she asks you to go to a show with her, go, even if it means a 5 hour car trip.
37)Go on a road trip even if theres no destination or you cant be gone long.
38) Listen to her favorite songs.
39)When shes sad or sick, hang out with her or stay on the phone with her, even if shes not saying anything.
39)Buy her ice cream.
40) Let her take all the pictures of you SHE WANTS.
41) Look into her eyes.
42)Slow dance with her, even if the music is fast.
43)Make her a romantic dinner for special days.
44)Remember dates.. even ones like your first kiss or dateand surprise her on the anniversary.
45)Kiss her in the rain.
46) Kiss her when she least expects it.
47)When you fall in love with her, tell her.

There's NOTHING left for me anymore..

My world turns UPSIDE DOWN..

EVERYONE i love and cares..

all turns on me..

feeling not-so-good todae =s

nothing mch to blogged todae..skipped sch due to my unwell feeling,slacked around,sleepin..eating..watchin tv..music..that's it..

tomorrow gonna go sch and meet up dear after sch..hope it will be an ok day =x

ohyeahss,suddenly remember..the song ytd by MLTR - Take me to your heart =P

ok..i'm outta here..Ciao everyonEz..(",)

TodaY - Morning was OK,afternoon is BAD,niGht is GOOD..!

went to sch as usual..spend my afternoon lying in bed..bad stomach cramps=(( sleep til ard 5pm and dressed up and meet dear.

i went out kinda early..around 5 30..and he company me go cut my hair at helen saloon,wanna go maggie actually..bt it's closed.hahas..kinda suprised actually..he so willing and patient waitin for me while i cut my hair..but it makes me very happy norh..keke..

after cuttin my hair..we went shop shop ard for awhile..and head to bucaneer to have our dinner..it's RAINING todae..=s and i'm really cold!!feel uncomfy due to my pains,and then have to suffer from the cold frm the rain=s neways..bucaneer was really cozy at nyt.and the 1st song when we came in..MLTR-....(suddenly 4got the title=x) how stewpid..but it's my fave song since last year..=D

ordered 8pieces of cheesy garlic breads,cream mushroom soup,sirlion beef steaks,a rack of lamb,and lastly..spaghetti bolonaigse..everythin simple taste w-o-n-d-e-r-f-u-l =)) it's so much food ryt?ourtable is actually filled with our foods!!=P bt we finished it ALL..no left over at all=P bet the waitress was lyk .." omigosh..two thin thin ppl young young eat SO MCH?!?! lol~

one funny thing is that..when i'm feedin dear's mushroom soup..the waitress came to serve our spaghetti..when she saw us..she actually turns ard and giv us privaCy..hahas..so know hw to zuo-ren arh.. hahass..LOL !!~

ate ate...actually wanna ate ice cream de for dessert..bt dear dun wan..so pay up and left..wanna spend some time in the office.. who knows..tink got ppl in ther so no dare go ther lo..instead we went to look for cd's awhile n i bought my cd..!!hehess...happy nia..found da cr dat i wanted sho sho mch.. =))

after awhile..we went home liao..hehesss..dear followed his dad car while my fren brought me home..msg-ed awhile..and here i am!!! =))

was supposed to sleep now actually.. bt den my back hurts!!so ask mommy urut..*yawns* tink i'm droppin off to sleep..!dead tired..

Din sleep well last nite..kept on woking up frm nightmares..one of the worst i've endured for a long tym..whiCh made me very scared to look at my mob 4 msgs..bt there is it..big as ever..i Feared for what had happened..anywaes..it's ok 4 nw.. =s

last nite was gud..missed out mel's party..yeah..i noe..bt what to do?benny and van van come to pick up me n emma n amy n headed to the tamu..dropped us off there to pick up ah may and felix.we were all vry high in da car,was so especially happy..like the first day when we all met for the 1st time of the last two years liddat=)) choi choi and yee soon was already there waitin for us..i have no idea they are comin too..ahahs..hogged2tables n ordered sup tulangs..wanna ordered satays too..bt bo liao=(( when my sup tulangs came..dno why..instead of soup.its filled with OIL!!grossed out when i see it..ask the person to change..n then hor..da meat is like..so karas to eat..n we asked for knives..bt den le..the knives NEVER come =s geez...van and emma abandon their sup tulangs vry quickly enuf =s

walk ard awhile..saw alot of friends..wave here wave there..talk here talk there..and then we thought wanna go jubilee watched battle of the bands mar..so benny go get car while choi and the rest of us girls shared a candy floss while waitin *weets* really missed how the taste of FRESH candy floss liaohss..keke..

but while we're waitin for car..something happened to van..not gonna say anythin personal here..but it dampens her moods..lyk..hell lot..!was really quiet in the car and in the end..only me,emma,amy went to the jubilee while yee soon and choi meet us ltr..

watched the carshow too.. wee..so many beautiful sports car ahh!!the more i see..the more i luvv it..=)) dun ask me or the car models..hav no idea at all =P when van meet us up later..she was alot beta liaohs *relieved smile *

De most memorable memory abt last night..1) in the car 2) when van and emma pakat 2gtr and called me and amy aunty.. n we in turn called them immatures..Lol~ n then me and amy pretend we dunno anything and ran fast fast away frm them and then they both ran after us n hugged us frm behind..hahas.. lol

spend the afternoon out with my family..went to fratiti and ate our lunches at 3pm=s nice norhss everything there..esp the pizzass and pastas..tried out those and was really full!!if i'm nt that full already..i'm really tempted to try another pasta agn..Lol~ dad keep teasin me and my mom abt hw we gonna have "spare tyres" 2mr frm eatin so mch!! haahas..there we met serene's whole family too..=))

after that we decided to shop awhile..went to soon lee..dad went to refill groceries,bro went upstairs see if there's new comic to buy..me and my mom?we're at the "ladies" section.. =P the best thing going out with dad?he pays for me..of course!!!=)) but too bad that chance don't come often..boo hoo..

when tat day i hear ur voice, i av sm special feelin

let me alwz tink i dun wanna 4gt u

i rmbr at d day u r alwz on my mind

eventhou i js cn tink abt u

if d day in d future,

dis luv wil becomin true

i've nvr change my mind tat i wil luv u 4evr

i dun care hw fool it is,

i wil let me dream cm true

i wil tell u smth i wanna let u noe, i let u noe

i luv u, luvin u, as d mouse luv d rice

even every day has storm, i will alws by ur side

i miss u, missing u, i dn care hw hard it is

i js wan u b hapi, everythin i do it 4 u

Psst psst...few more hoUrs..it wud be me n dear's 1yr anniversary liaohss..!keke!

too lazy to eat dinner..still so full frm the lunch!!=)) guess gonna sleep early tonyt tho..wanna be fresh for 2mr school..hehes..

hw blardy tiredi felt..practically did'nt sleep at all at nyt..till lyk..4am??but then..at NINE am ord woke up and can't fall back asleep..geez -_-"

spend da nyt gabbin on the phone with mandy ( lyk v dun c each other liddat a few hrs ago =P ) and then sms with peh shan..after that..open my hi-fi listen to mozart's music that i asked my dad burn from pc for me so i could listen in my room..finished watch initial-D and sex is zero..and decided to pop into bed..thought i may be able to zZzz til at least..who knows??now already woke up..

ryt nw..i'm feeling kinda unease..dunno why..vry uncomfy feeling liddat..whole nyt have been feeling this way...lyk..i'm gonna vomit everythin out liddat =s

I'm gonna miss mel's party!!!boo hoo..cnt go take a look at her fance hse with...security guard outsyd da hse..her own driver..the comfy-ness,fancy-ness,beauty-ness..the FOODS there=P and wanna enjoy her hse own ballroom..LoL~

reason for missin the party?cause i thought it's on 21..n 21 is OVER liao rite..totally 4got abt the dates..till peh shan text me lastnyt n told me she will bring me to mel hse ltr..Geez -__- too late liao..i temu janji with my group of girlies..haven't seen them for a long tym..and i can't dump them for sake of a party rite? a promise is a promise...besides..i'm very lookin forward to hanging with my close buds =)) can't wait for 2nyt =))

right nw..i'm waitin for my bro to cook mee 4 me!!!tee hees!!my lil bro leh..normally i'm the one who cook noodles or soup for bro..this tym? HE COOK FOR ME!!!=P

okaess..all for now..waitin for another list of mozart's song to be in my list.. n rite nw..mom at right side..dad at left side..lecturin me abt..MY CARELESSNESS OF USING SOAPS.. geez -_-

woken up by mandy's msg and misscall at 12 40pm..get ready..watch abit of initial D..and go out find her..went to kb kfc and ate there and did alot of catchin up while we're eatin..lol~ shop ard ..n grab an ice cream cone..saw alot of those stuff pillows that i fell in love with..=)) n a ELMO stuff toy..darn cute!!wish i hav one.. we then decided to grab ice creams and then SUPPOSED to be headed home..bt then..i know i won't feel gd at home..so went down to seria with mandy..shop ard AGAIN in seria..n headed back to her home..

watched sex is zero in her room..nt exactly porn..bt enuf nudity in it=D n it's HILARIOUS...can't stop laughin..and then ard 7 chang came to c mandy..we round round awhile lorh..and then at last ..chang is the one who sent me home..hahas..actually wanna go pasar malam with them de..bt den promised my dad i will be home by 9pm so no jadi liao..=((

keke..this is the real actual tym i've seen my best friend DATING..!!=P both of them look so ...IN LOVE and was all mushy mushy the whole time i'm there..hahas.. tho i'm quiet in the back seat..i really could'nt stop giggling..and it's sorta hard to control too..at least it's dark =))

One scary thing is that we were almost involved in an accident!!!I'm really so scared in da back seat=s when chang wanna overtake a car..he dun realised that there's a car near him in the pararel lane(or wadeva lane u called it..i dunno) n i saw the car's front is practically a few inches frm my door!!my eye got so BIG but luckily chang sa it in time..if not..i'm in hospital nw lor.. =s

day is aiight the whole day ard..except for the near accident and a msg my dear sent..i ask him if he wan go with me to the padang 2mr mornin..he say NO...fine..but just now?he msg me and told me that 2mr he wanna go go padang in the mornin with his friend..if you were me..how would you feel?since he so intent to go with his friend ..and dun even bring me with him!!! mayb he just dun wanna be seen with me or something..whatever reason he dun wana go with me..and most of all..i dunno why i can feel tears burnin in my eyes when he msg-ed me..n even now..when i'm writin this post..

day was actually pretty aiight at sch..untill someone told me smth..cause me hav a huge bawl over it..maybe i'm thinkin too mch N too sensitive..i dunno..really love this song..here's da lyrics.. it's pretty meaningful for me..gt mh sentimental values..n reflects my thoughts alot..bt dun think the other way..i'm nt heartbroken or anythin..lol~

do you ever think about me?

do you ever cry yourself to sleep?

in the middle of the night when you're awake..

are you calling out for me?

do you ever reminisce?

i can't belive in nothing like this

i know it's crazy

how can i still feel you kiss?

it's been 6months,8days,12hours

since u went away

i miss you so much i don't know what to say

i should be over you

I should know better,but it's just not the case

its been 6months,8days,12hours

since you went away

do you ever ask about me?

Do your friends still tells you what to do?

everytime the phone rings..

Do you wish it was me calling you?

do you still feel the same?

Or has time put out the flame

I miss you..

Is everythin okay?

it's hard enough just passin the time

when i can't get to get you off my mind

and where is the good in your goodbyes

tell me why..tell me why...

sing it for me..

just reached home..dead tired..just reach home =s day is aiight.went to sch as usual..and go out at 12 30 to meet up wif dear..keke..

went to bucaneer hav our lunches,ordered a sirlion steak for me..n chicken chop/steak for dear N shared a cheese omelette..keke..bucaneer hav changed..bt i guess de last tym "look" is beta lorh..hahas..more classic..i tink =))

dad went to miri ytd..and naturally..ask him buy prezzies 4 me!!bt da tingie i ask him buy no longer available..bt he go everywher lookin for d thing i wanted..which delayed his tym home..N most of all..no shops at all sold it anymore..bt dad gave me some cash to spend nia=D and he said he will pay for the slip-on's which i wantedto buy..=))

my chou chou torn liao larh!! wen i'm gettin ready to bed..off da lights..n grope ard for my chou chou.i dun realise i'm sittin ON it..when i realised..pulled it..n da sheets torn!!!=(( lucky it's just da sheets tho..can still be mended de..mom say she buy me a new 1..but i refused =P it's my sentimental thingie..or wadeva u called it.. lol~

yeah!!! biz test was changed next month!!thought i'm gonna stay up da nyt studyin agn..bt it's cancelled..so yeah..cn sleep early..=)) bt gotta copy some notes tho..too mch notes wrote too slowly ..which made me missed out alot.. hahass..

hrm...day was'nt asbad as i thought it would,bt still..it WAS bad in the morning..frm that "bad" thing hab happened..i kept thinkin abt it de moment i woke up..haiss..cnt wait to confide in yun abt it..bt she's still in sch =s

anywaes..wash up as usual..n de 1st bad thing happened?i lost my contacts!!!-_-" bcos i'm so preocupied in my thoughts..i din realise my contacts are nt popped in PROPERLY n da moment i blink my eye..it comes out n fell of sumwher i could'nt find..hav2open new box of contacts..sheeshh..bt luCky gt spare larh..=))

go to sch..n 1st class is socio liao..listen to da ther 4abit..lol~nt imagine me doin dat=)) since it's a new chapter..myt as well listen loh..n proly 2mr hv to start doin self notes..tcher seems like she dun bother to giv us handouts..geo was'nt too good..cuz we all got scolded frm talkin=s

after that..went to grab a nasi ayam merah..n d 2nd bad thing happened..geezz..so immature dat gur..ytd forgotten to mention what hab happened in biz clas..ytd hor..was playin wif amali's CLEAN AND CLEAR blotters..n den with his listerine packs..n i called out to dat "gur" so many tyms she dun 1na layan so fed up just throw the listerine to him..who knows..ngam2 dat "gur" head turns..n d listerine hits her NOSE instead..i apologized her THREE fuggin tyms..dat 1? fine..2dae..after buyin my nasi,of course sit wif da smss larh..n den..dat "gur" came N den..mutterin inmalay abt my bad words and callin me a BITCH!!!cn u bliv it?geez..it's nt lyk ppl dun apologize to her..which i did..THREE tyms..n dat ppl is intentional to hit her precious nose..fcuk off lar..bt den..could'nt be bothered by sum1 lyk her..it's nt lyk any1 tryin to break down da door BEGGIN for her friendship anywaes..lol~

2dae our sch hv dis career talk..students frm all ard belait came down..was actually very disinterested de..till emma approach me " grace arhh!!!vanessa at d dewan ther ahh!!!go c her lorh!!!" then i go lorh..saw van n den adrain.. 3 of us chatted away till the mpp chase us pre U1 out..lol~ n it's da 1st tym i c rainier face to face too!!

anywaes...gotta go ryt nw..wanna watch tv..keke..=D

IT'S REALLY PISSING ME OFF

.....

geez..early early mornin already got smth liddat happnen..

haiz..can feel day gonna be bad=((

why does it have to happen!?!?!!!

Geez..no more tym to tink..

hav ta pop to sch..

Ciao!!!!!

day was pretty cranky N as vry short tempered =s mayb its due frm my lack of sleep.day wad aiight,bt not really aiight also..what m i talkin about kan?=[

went to sch as usual..dun teach mch thO,n v hab a socio open bk test..me N jul simply did sum of the questions..copyin exactly the materials tcher gave us..n den gossip da rest of tym abt lipglosses N piercings =D

one very scary tingie hor..when we're talkin abt eyebrow piercings,wani told us a vry scary thing..one of her friends,a " HE " gt a eyebrow piercing..n normally..after a few days..sumtimes the pus cum out ryt?after squeezin his pus out..he noticed that his eyebrow had a STRING!!so ke kept on pullin dat "string" out..til its all out i guess..nt realisin dat it's one of his eye vein!!!he was blind straight afterward n wil be permanently blind 4life..Eww..kinda kerlian dat guy lorh =s

it's den gp class and biz class..go thru all of it..n until 12pm..i really hv a big urge dat i dun wana go geo class..so msg mommy cum pik me early=) bt hopefully..d escapin part wont go on my record o smth..=s n mos of all ..luckily v dun hv to do group biz proj 2dae..if nt..will die of exhaution liao =s

hav lunch ..dno wad's wrong wif my apetite..kept on feelin hungr..so cook corn soup agn!!n distym..my bro say my corn soup nice..nt too salty *roll eyes* well..he happy cn lor..keke..hrm..suddenly i just rmb,i tink i'm nt gonna b chosen for national service..if gt..sure wud hv heard frm parents liao de..bt too bad peh shan got it..n she's complainin it up N down..lol~ who cud blame her?if i'm here..i'm probaly b da same way too..

finally changed my blogskin liao..bt i dun lyk it too mch..hab been searchin for days 4 my perfect skin..bt till nw hvn't found one which made me fall in love wif it..so proly just gonna use this for a while till i found it =))

gdnyt...muakies..


p/s : KYRIE AKA CLEAN N CLEAR....I CNT BLIV U "LOVE" PINK!!!GEEEZZZ...TRYIN TO COMPETE WITH ME O WHAT HUH..AHAHA..LOL~

was still very tired 2dae..tho already hab 3daes holiday!!woke up kinda early 2dae..ard 10 30++..woken up by a dream..to b precise=s den sumhow..i did nt go back to sleep..came on9 n chatted wif van n benny..i guess next sat nyt is O-N..yippie..cn eat sup tulang liao..keke

lasnyt was'nt really that gd..cuz gt a huge row wif dear..he accused me of nt being a more gentler gur..a mor homey gur..n a lazy gur who lazy to learn to do tings n a gur who loves to splurges..=(( heart oso bleed arh..heard ur loved 1 say liddat to you..to add on my bleedin heart..dat KYRIE..aka CLEAN AND CLEAR..said dat i'm full of myself..UGLY..jahat..bising..does'nt have lady-like appeals..geez =(( Geez...kena hurt by 2 ppl in mere hours..can you believe it..

ard 12pm++ felt vry hungry lorh..n 4once..my dad don't see me STILL sleepin when he came back from his breakfast..n he tapau kueh tiau for me..geez..hw many tyms i told him i dun lyk kueh tiau anymor bt still buy..to add on to dat..der's so mch of da green green onions in there!!ate oni lyk..a quarter of it n den wana try the mexican bun my mom bought this mornin..d bun..is vry delicious!!untill i ate to da middle of it n saw RAISINS in it..another hate item in the hate list. Complained to my mom..n unfortunately..dad was oso ther..n he said " so picky..kueh tiau dont eat..bun dont eat..go cook maggie mee n eat la" haiz..which i really DID..at ard 3pm ..lol~

hrm...i'm thinkin of changin my bloggie skins liao..finally sick of this "pretty lil me" skin..even more sick of the midi that i've posted..hahas..it took about 7MONTHS 4me to outgrown this skin..Geezz..

kk..tym 4 dinner..n lazy blog so mch.. tata!

tamuuuu....=))

Hold on,If yOu feeL liKe lettinG gO

HolD oN,iT gEts BettEr ThaN YoU KnOw..

don't Stop LooKin you'Re One SteP cLosEr

doN't Stop SearChInG It's noT ovEr.

jus slack Ard home 2dae..i guess..unless i'm goin out 2nyt..i feel kinda sian oso at home..all dos movies i've borrowed hab finish watchin..tho woke up ard 2hr ago..stil feel very heavy eyed nia..so tired =s slept vry late lasnyt tho..was gabbing on da fon wif my dear fren mandy chong..hahas..her life sure got so many tings happen in dis short tym!!lol~ n sum stories wre real funny..hahas..

went out lasnyt wif nina..khew..richard..chiu yen..andy..siang to tamu..ate mee jawa in 1 of da stalls..nt too nice lorh!!b4 dat..gt buy 1 snowkones..weets..nw i noe..the snowkones were sold by ah moi's (a schmate) family!!hahas..was shocked..me khew n richard bought 1 snowkones each..bt hor..when im savourin my snowkone..it does'nt hab d effect lyk lasyr..lol~ lasyr i was realy VERY crazy abt it..1nyt i tink bought abt 3-4snowkones?bt dis yr..i cnt evn finish ONE of it..i wonder why liddat Huh??sumhow snowkones dun appeal me anymore..

went walk ard 4awhile..lookin wad stalls sell wad..n bought 1pink furry furry pencilbox!!it looks really nice on d outside..bt when u touch da fur..it was nt SOFT fur!!!haiss..so dissapointed ya noe?=(( bt den..its pretty enuf *comfortin myself* lol~ n til ard 9 30..peh shan..fung mei..lih fui..arrived..n wre tryin to find a stall to sit down..went 2 tyms back n forth arh-_- den we ordered dos sweet sweet drinks..me n pehshan orderes cocktails..mine's blueberry smth smth n pehshan's 1 is honeydew smth smth..v sed v wana shared shared mar..who noes..after she took 1 bite of my cocktail she sed her's totally tasteless liao =s

bought satay 4 my bro to eat..n my dad pik me n nina up ard 10 45..lucky dad cum in tym..cuz if nt..voth of us wud b soakin Wet frm da rain which suddenly pours..

in all..day was gd..except 4 one lil fact..i really dno hw lng i cn tolerate dis kinda nonsence b4 i go insane..agn hab heard few stuff which made me %^&*@$$^&**!!!!!!!so darn mad..

just reach home ater spendin da whole day wif dear...its vry satisfactory n happy=)) went to da dunno-wad-name-cuz-i-4got restaurent to hab our lunches..hab my fav pork chop rice agn..n demolish half of dear's meat..=P was really sweaty n hot nw..wana take a bath bt my bro in da bathroom..so gotta wait lor..

*weetS* 2mr mom nt gonna go sch take my report!!nt dat anythin..she just plainly lazy to go at all..ahahs..bt den..d prob of WHO gonna take my report is a prob lor..budden..beta den my parents who took it lar..keke..

was supposed to go to liyana's hse to do our debate 2gtr..budden hor..janah n liyana had finished it off wifout waitin 4 me!!yipee..which means i hav absolutely nth to do xcept read d debate out..hopefully..da oposition team wont gimme a hard tym =s

OMGG!!!!! i suddenly jus rmb!!!!i got a whole PILE of biz notes dat i missed out i hvnt copy it!!phew...definitely lucky 2nyt no nid to go lyana's hse.. budden...dis means i hv to cut my tv tym short =( nw chasin after 1 drama..dno wads da name..din c d title(stupid ryt..?=P) its borowed frm azlina 1..keke.. d movie is darn nice..n its shoot at greece n alot other beautiful places ard da world =)) c till saliva oso drop arhz..dos beautiful places..keke

Good news!!! my dear bessie..yun is gonna b back next mont!!!!!yeapii!!me so happy..after so many months no c her..nw cn finally c her liao ..keke..all thanks to her MOM!!=P her mom wan her back so she gonna b back lor..keke..bt oni a few days nia.. coz she wana go to a camp wif her classmates..bt den..its all gd =))

my bro out of da toilet..my turn to use!! ciao.. =))

Geez..

day wad boring..Seems lyk dis days avday oso boring ah..haiz-_-" no excitement at all..jus liv my liv d same way everyday!wake up..go sch..cum back..bath..eat..on9..tv..bath..dinner..on9 ..sleep..geez..-_-" so sien..bt i guess dat's abt 2change..cuz todae i got three large sets of vcd's to watch..n more den 5novels borrrowed frm fren..all dis gonna at least tide me over for abt...1week + ? =)) so i guess wud nt bloggin s mch s avday nw..lol..gonna b BuSy=P

haiss..i've reali been kinda dreadin parent's day on sat..till nw..over 1 month+ ..i stil hvn break the news to my mom..was hopin a fren of mine cud take it 4 me lorhs..keke..=)) mayb ask jie o smth..if he's free..n posed s my so called bro..bt definitely dis had to b kept frm dad..mom oso wud b vry dissapointed la.. n im kinda worry wad da tcher wud say ..i cud jus imagine it.." ur daughter muz start workin vryhard nw if she wana excel in her A's ..she hav nt been payin attention in class..owz foolin ard n tokin wif her friends.." omigod.. -__- tryin hard nt to tink abt ds=s

hab been talkin wif yun whole day norhxx..keke...v jus decide v wana celebrate our 18th bdaesss 2gtr on da same day...whther belated or advanced..v jus decided..v simply MUST spend our bdaes 2gtr n cut da cake 2gtr..funny ryt..lol~ v hab been decidin d places to hold our bdaes..bt v wre hopin v cud go to empire n play!!!! hopefully..d empire part is green light for our parents *prayin hard *

tyms hab really flies so fasT..nw its ord july..wow..d last tym i rmb v wre at graduation dinner..n nw its ord july..=s bt so far..dis yr.. nth GOOD or EXCITIN or smth worth vry MEMORABLE hab happened..jus liv my life d usual way ..bt haven seen pat 4 mor den 7 months..yun for 5 months(1st tym v hab been seperated dis lng too!!!) n me n dear were approachin our 1 yr anniversary..*weets*

haiz..a very very bad news..d national service list gonna cum out soon ..tink so its next week or smth..n im really dreadin it..i really dun wana go 4 d national service..imaginin d sun is simply more den enuf 4 me to bear..hahas..bt i've heard frm frens dat i was vry fun..so if i got choosen i proly will jus go willingly..n wont nag lyk las week to my dad abt hw mch i dun wan to go 4 it..pay sum "coffee money" n so on..ahahs..bt i'm hopin if i got chosen ..i wud b transfered to kl ..wud simply just <33333 to go shoppin once agn=))

jus reach home nt lng ago actually..mom went to da saloon at 5pm liddat to trim her hair..n den at 6pm she called hom n asked if v wana go out hab our dinner she ask us go get ready n fetch us..went to hab dinner at kaybee lor..ate pork chop..=P n shop awhile in bodyshop..bought sum stuff.. paid by mom..it's all gd =))

oookayss.. guess dats it.. hahas... nyts..muakies..

-_-"

fuggin tired..tym seemz to intch VERY slowly in sch 2dae..or mayb im jus excited to go office..lol~ i actually esc my fav class..biz class..to went out..tee hee..bt hor..masalina FORGOT he had to bring me out at 12 30 n nt 2 15!!!!n totally 4gotten abt it!!!bt den..my classmate...jason..send me out..=)) all gd ..hehe..

we went to yue yuen eat my precious chau mee goreng..desperate 4 it..so go lor..=P den spend da whole noon wif each other nia...nw chattin wif mandy..n teachin her hw to host pic.. * weets* anywaes.. till here larhs.. vry tired norh.. gdnyt ..=))

stupiakz..

bloody government..stupid stupid stupid!!!ytd nyt wosh SO wu liao..der's is absolutely NOTHIN i cn do except sittin on da sofa..which is wat i did whole nyt neways..jus coz der's no electricity da whole nyt sinc 6pm!!!haiz..!den ard 9 pm fall asleep liao..n when i woke up at ard 3am to the loos..i realise der's electric..=))

ytd...agn ..sch is SLOW...geez-_-" nt mch mood 4 sch dis days..even at biz class im quiet instead of listenin to da tcher or laffin my head of wif jul..hrm..dno y liddat de..den when i reaCh home...3tyms 3tyms no jadi go out..1st,nai pao msg me askin if i wana go bandar wif da group..i sed No..cuz dun feel lyk it..den 2nd..me n mandy wana go out to kb hv tea 2gtr..cuz i wana grab a mee..den v feel kinda lazy take da bus in d end no jadi agn..3rd..d most du lan one..fuggin asshole..dat HE ask me if i wana hv tea..so ask mandy along..bt den ler..HE FLY US PLANE!!!!!nv cum n pick us up..u say ngry o nt ler??fire oso burn arh..wadeva..such UN-man ppl i dun nid at all..

ryt nw..am actually eatin my breakfast while writin dis entry..teehee..after sch 2dae wana meet my dear..* weets*

boring day i hab-_-"

You Ask Me What's Wrong..

i ansWer yOu "I'm FiNe"..

BuT whEn i Turn Around..

A teAr rollEs DowN mY eYes N i whisperEd

"EverYtHiNg"

jus finished havin my dinner..hv fried fish fillets 2nyt..so yummy!!((= ate alot jus nw sinc i hvnt eaten anytin sinc my breakfast slash lunch..tee hee..b4 havin dinner..was actually doin my biz hw ler..kinda hard norh..almost used up my brain juice so decide cum on9 n wait 4 my dinner 2 b served..chatted wif mir..havent seen him sinc last yr n suddenly he IM me..lol..~n told me n he his gal wre ord 6 months wor..spend their 6month anniversary in the empire * sighin enviosly* n andrew IM me out of da sudden too..n he had his uni semester break til aug..try imagine..hol til aug arh!!! *again..sighin enviously" i oso wan hol le..=s

2dae vry moody n slow..actually..dis 2 days hv been very SLOW lar..dun go anywae..jus slack ard at hom whol day..n ytd went out for few hrs wif mandy n shih wei..went to yue yuen ate my chau kolo mee goreng..desperate 4 it dis days=)) ate 2 plate agn arh..n both of my frens were waitin patiently while i savour my mee..=P n den after dat v went to da 2 soon lee shop shop awhile..d oni ting which caught my eye is da new lipgloss by silkygirl..wana get it soon..totally obssesed nia..n bought a Star brooch 4 my tudong..totally lovin it <333

i got all moi songs liao!!!!yeapii..=)) fastball-out of my head..carrie underwood-inside your heaven..jet-look wad u've done and nick lachey-this i swear all within last 2days..keep repeatin dis4 songs non stop 4 few days liao..vry vry addicted to it=)) lasnyt sing sing along wif da songs too..weets..sumhow..singing makes me happier..lol~ dis hv happened for d 3rd liao liao..keke..

haiz.. really felt sad for 2 of my gd peeps..dey wre sufferin frm heartbreaks ))= (me ler..??nt yet..hope dis day will nv cum nor..)haiz..really cud'nt understand guys at all..y do dey hv to treat their gurls dis way ..made them cry so mch..lost appetite n all..i wud trade my 24hr tym to work instead of endurin dis kinda pain..=s

when chattin wif yun lasnyt..she told me sumting vry shockin..i opened da webcam gv her c mar..sinc she so lng tym no c me..she look at me 4 mayb...15-20min? she suddenly told me.. "eh..frm all d pics u hab sent me dis yr..n 2dae lookin at u in webcam..i realise ah..u dis yr really is unhappy lor" i was stunned..i guess..i tot my face wud show a happy expression after hvin a few hrs of fun..bt she cud sumhow c out wads inside me..me myself had also realise..dis yr im really unhappy compared to last yr..or few yrs back..i wonder why??bt at dat tym..i refuse to admit ..i ask my mom n mandy..both sed da same ting too..well..mayb dis yr is really bad??i jus hope..i will b happier soon...=((

Weetss..jus nw mom bought for me 1 big pack of cadburry chocolates which i lurvee soo soo mch..1 pack of mentos n my bloved 7up ice..so happy..neways.. till here 4 2nyt lorh...still gotta finished up my remainin biz quez.. nyt av1.. tata..

time can really prove alot of things

from the sweetest guy u eva wanna meet

to the one you regret meetin

how long will it takes to know a person well..

how lng will u eva noe u're able to trust that person

a week..amonth..or a year?

why has ppl gotta change the impression of thmselves in you

that's something i dun understand

and wud lov to find out

i despise ppl who hide themselves

when they know u're lookin for them

i despise ppl who are irresponsible

when they are supposed to be responsible

i despise ppl who make empty promises

where in the 1st place they know they wun b able to fulfil it

words are always easy to spell out

but it can never b trusted

actions are supposed to make you feel touched

but it can always be something fake,

trusting someone too easily wil oni bring misery to yourself.

dun change urself for the sake of someone

change for the sake of yourself,

no one is perfect,

there's nth last forever..