my day ...nt urs...=P

Aww...sucH a boring daY..stay home whole day 4 a change nehh..cosh avday go out sinc cNy..very tired norhs..so must rest rest =) slept til 1pm + lehh..so lack of sleep dish days...n made moi dear wait moi msg frm 8am til 1pm ..kakaka..! =P sorry nehh.. den when wake Up..my lil bro jus um bak frm skew so eat lunCh straight away lorhs n msg wif moi dear at d same same tym...v tok alot of thingies lorhss...n guess wut..???!!?!?! WE ARE BACK TOGETHER AGN...!after one week of un-happiness n heartaches..v were finally ok n back together...MuaKkksSsSS...! blerhh..kekekeke..den hor..after msgin wif moi dear..decide cum on9 lorhhss..upload sum pics in here nehhss..wut u guys tink..? kekeke.. btw.. makong called me up lasnyt worhhss..!frm kl nehh !!so gud hor..it seems lyk he wosh doin verY gud der..n heard dat he gonna start skoolin aGn..=) happy ferr him..blerhh... aiya...my Cr left $10 liao arhss..! ya noe y ..? cosh i've been msgin wif yun yun so mch lolhs..i reali mish her so mch man!!!! n she's doin fine der too..hheehehe..but den..she seem reali rajin worhss..i msg her..she tel me she was doin her work lasnyt ntoday she told me she was REVISING.. >.<>jus nw chatin wif cui ann @grace ..another grace agn..lols..~ n ask her abt SA stuff norhs.. turn out orientation day is a day when d senoirs bully d juniours n made them do stupid stuff worhs..!! eiyer..y liddat ..make me feel so un-comfy nehh...hrm ..mandy jus msg me..turns out our driver @tze jin wosh bak ..n we're gonna go lim teh 2nyt..yipeee..!!

another moi...last liao ..others too lui..no nid to c.. keekee 

aiyaa...y look liddat de...  

Acting cute..? tinkin of who ler..?  

my eyes look so bulgy nerhhss..=) 

another pic of mine!!smile oso bengkok liao ..!!kekeke... 

my pics here durin cny..!! taken at home..kekeke.. 

wadeva lar

hrm..2nyt's lion dance wosh reli fun ..n HOT...i sweat profusely lar..-_- n a few tings happen after dat ..biggie things..kekeke..den at home.. another few even bigge tings happen.. haiss.. malas to write wad issit.. LOL~~~ its 4am in da mornin n icnt sleep..!! wel..im still very addicted to d song TONG HUA tho ..bleRhh...

woshh ..

Eurrgh..sleep so daRn late 2dae..jus woke up actually.. cos slept at 3am bahhh...lasnYt..thanks to whoo..?!?!?!?! han wen lorhss!! nvm tho ..cos he wosh havin probs..his best-gurfren wosh cheated bt a bastard..one leg step 2 boat kinda thingie..i mean..can dat guy b more guo fen..?cant he sees dat when u played wif a gur feelings..u wil make her world fall apart? LYK MOI HERe... but he aint cheatin on me..abit more diff situation..when i heard it.. i wosh lyk ..so sad.. y cant guys treat gurs lyk dey shud..gurs r fragile..no matter hw strong dey r appear on d outside..bt stil..dey get hurt on d insyd..y cnt guys treat gurs lyk ...loving them properly.. make them smile..make them happy..make them feel lyk dey r the MOst PERFECT woman in d world ..?? y does boys owez treat gurs lyk they're toys.. throw them aside when dey dun feel lyk humourin d gur n find them agn when dey SUANG?? sighh..tokin abt dis topic make me so heated man ...but i do hope.. my Fren's best-girlfren wil b ok soon..she actually got hysterical n wont accept d truth.. it reminds of me in d past -_-

hrm....ytd wosh darn fun!!!!!!!spend d mornin n afternoon wif mandy ..n den meet up wif nina.. we went to limteh THREE tyms ah !!!my bladder omos broke down ..nina wosh lyk so Crazy over EDISOn.. d lil guy in chms..n when i told him he got took part in d lion dance..she keep on pullin nina to go wif her to lion dance.. hahaha.. nina wosh sooooo Boy-freak .. agn ..it reminds me of d past.. -_- bt im nt liddat anyMore.. im so mch committed to d guy i lurppsss...tho now its over btw us 2.. but his words stil linger in my mind.. i tink it bcum kinda a ..ermm.. a habit.. hahaha..

n den n den .. ard 4 30pm ..we all went to da bEach to play play til nyt..very siok nehh.. AGNN..i mis those tyms when moi dear wosh givin me piggy back rides on d beach ...n playin 2gtr...bt dos r MEMORIES liao.. dey no longer existss.. bt stil...i realli mish dos tyms in d office when his dad osh lyk ..nt arnd.. he wosh givin me piggy bac rides n carryin me frm d room to da kitchen jus cos i lazy to walk ..hahahahss.. haiss.. back to d topiC.. at ard 8 we went to richard hse 4 gathering.. shower ourselves off.. me..peh shan..lil fui shower 2gtr...takin off clothes n al.. * shy shy * even in d shower ..we oso cn hv fun larh ..aha.. but v got laff at lorhs.. cos 6 boys were showerin in another bathroom ..ONE AT A TYM..n we were d slowest. .!!! -_- den we eat chicken wings.. hear louey play d guitar..n play card n i went home early cosh i woshh TOO TIRED..so numb i feel. .ahahaha..

speakin of louEy.. he's wosh in lov 4 d 2nd tym agn worhss.. wif moi own gud fren izati ..!!hahaha..i msg izati at home.. n found out..she hv d same feelin 2..!!! so sweet neh ..n both of them were lyk ..don tell each other dey lyk each other arh... v stil in d proocess bla bla bla... im reali happy 4 them both.. hahaha..bt agn ..it reminds me back in may .. when me n moi dear is liddat ...sigh.. av paragrapgh abt dis 2days.. reali reminds me of d past lorhss.. =S... im reli sad thinkin dat both ppl can b so in lurve wif each other cn quarrel so mch n 2ppl so in lurve wif each other relationship hv ended ..n he oso dun wan me back ..sayin ..i hurt him too mch ...mayb i did... .. =(

omgg.. dis days.. im reali Fascinated wif d song Tong Hua sang by guang liang larh.. !!!i dunno y..i keep hvn d fantasy sum1 wil sing it to me n givin me flowers.. adeh ...i dunno y.. i got tink abt puttin dis song in da blog.. but it seems nt fit.. i wana get a jukebox vEry soOn ..!!!! put ALL my fav fav songs insyd herE.. but dis song..-tong hua.. IS A MUST LISTEN SONG.. =P

wil b goin out 2nyt i supposed.. cosh i wana go c lion dance..hope it wil b a gud nyt. .kekekeke...surely ren san ren hai ..wil c alot of frens der.. kekke..

Eww lalaa..feel lyk bloggin in here nehhss..so HERE I AM..!!erm ..wher am i ..woo seh ..actually.. ytd wosh kinda fun lorhs.. went out in d mornin wif moi dear dear.. n den ler.. after dat actually supposed togo home marhss..bt met up siau tak n den ..me,siau tak,botak,armani,n ching ching went to orchird room 2gtr,eat beef steak worhss..but nt as nice as bucaneer 1 lor..so missin d tyms when me n moi dear went to bucaneer eat beef steaks norhs..kekek.. den went home..n alan khew..richard..andy..daniel ..fung mei.. peh shan.. all cum my hse pai nien lorhs.. after dat v went to andy's n daniel's ...

n at 4 30pm ..arnd 5 larhss.. yu kiat cum pick ching ching up lorjhs..den v were jus shootin sum hoops at andy's hse..after dat went to yin shun hse..lelele.e.. n bak to my hse ard 8pm.. n we were playin Cards n eatin pizza lorhss.. n ard10 pm ..BARU I GOT MY MOB BACK AHH !!!cos i left it at fren car when he bring me n ching ching go home.. den den after dat went to da beach wif my fRens..d water very icy norhs.. lucky my face no kolap ..hehehehe.. nonetheless.. i hv fun ytd whole day =)

now is today mornin ...ryt now im writien dis =) n chattin wif oki n sms-in wif pierre same tym ..kekeke.. oki reali a grown up guy..tho he may be a bad guy wif girls.. bt he reali giv gud advices to me n help me c *openly* blerh ..wad m i sayin kan ..now im jus waitin 4 d tym to pass to 11am .. went lim teh wif mandY.. ehhehe.. den afternoon ...went to da beach par-TAYYy wif d peeps.. n at nyt ..go richard hse pARTAAAAYY sum more n cum bak ..hrm ..got take quite a lot of pics worr.. wil uplkoadit here soon.. now lazy norhs.. kekekek..n oki jus sed dat i noe d feeling of lurpss.. as if.. if i noe.. i doubt i wud end up in a failed relationship aitess... shiat ..

its midnyt..valentine's officailly over..!!! LOL~~ ..unexpected ..i hv a bit of fun on dis day ..not a VERY FUN kinda fun ..but nonetheless..it wosh fun =P i did nt not spend wif moi dear..or rather..EX dear.. but wif moi frens norhs.. unexpectedly.. siau tak called me up ard 6pm n ask me out 4 a gatherin ..i went wif him.. i suposed its okaay.. since its gruop gatherin n all..he pick moi up atard 8pm loRhs.. along wif other so manmy dates -_- foo foo .. stacey n christina..hahah...upon reachin der..i wosh shocked.. SO MANY PPL lehh ..got peter mui..nai yong..olivia..nai wen ..ah boy..urmm ...2boys i 4got wads their names ( i oni noe them las2days..ahaha) i tink one call sotong nyways.. n den ogt aaron yong..evonne..ayu ..ah nong.. n his gf..i dunno who issit..yah ..dats abt it..ohyaa!! got botak oso ..!! av1 wosh real frenly n we allmingle arnd lorhss.. n mom mom steamboat ..ahah..i din eat mCh tho.. lazy .. n i rcv flowers!!! wel.. all d gurls der rcv one nyways.. -_- but by diff boys lorhss... not necesarily bf n gf lar.. mine's wosh given by siau tak .. overall. its fun laRhsss.. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lalaa...nt busy-ing out deR..so tot i'll pop in here..dis2days really sucks..i mish him so mch..bt i hv end our relationship..i cnt do o say anythin anymore ryt..i jus hv to live my life wifout him by my side..bt im still missin him lyk crazy..cnt ever stop cryin wheneva i tink of him..n 2dae's valentine's day..if v're 2gether..i suposed i muz b gettin sum beautifully chosen gift frm him ...n eating out..but instead..im at home..how pathetic...-_- well..we ARE suposed to meet up 2dae nyWays..coupled o not..bt den ..las min cnt liao. .so no more lorhs..i realli dunno..when i'll stop gettin over him ...sumtimes i really feel regret dat i broke up wif him..d reality is finished.. but yet in our hearts it isnt..wel..i dunno..all i noe.. dis yr..really suCks.. frm dbeginnin til now..nth is ever gud ferr me.. its all unhappiness..tears.. fyts.. leavin who n who.. speakin of leavin who n who ..guess wad.. yun's gone 2dae.. her flight is at 7 pm 2nyt to kk...i feel lyk d wwhole world leavin me... 1st pat is flyin to aussie.. 2month ago.. n when results are out. .peh shan.. yun mandy ..all are not walkin d same path s me..n lastly..me n dear hv left each other...C? av1 imp in mua life is leavin me..im being left alone.. wif nowher to go ..sudenly ..i jus wish skool wil start immediately.... i wana get bz bz bz .. so i'll nt tink of anythin anymore.. life is jus so.. shitty fer me nw.. n i doubt.. it wil get any better..hv been hangin out wif pierre vry often dis days.. nt hanging out.. bt its owez d same placE.. n sumtimes he got msg me how m i feelin..i tink ..he's d oni one who noe wad im goin thru lorhss.. .cuz he's in da same situation as i am....haiss.. ~~ 2 set lien ren..hahahaSss...hrm ...i tink im gonna get a hair cut soon worrhhss.. cos im pretty sick of my hairstyle nw.. gonna cut fringes agn i supose.. cos i dun wana cut myback hair. ..wana keep it long long..hahahas... -_-

feelin so farked up........

it's lyk ..blardy 3am in da mornin n yet i'm not asleep..i simplY canT..! it hab been an emotional nyt ferr me..lasnyt arnd 8pm..went to nai wen openhOuse wif amy.. supossing hvin fun..d lemo chicken was hell niCe btw..n saw a couple of pretty ladies n handsome men.. haha..got to noe them too ..yeah ..den n.wen gav me n amy red wine..n wifout realisin it..both of us hv drank quite an amount n were pretty mch pissed..n i dun fee lyk jottin down wad we did der.. so farked up ..

i actually got lost of d tym ..cosh v wre drunk n having fun..n " UNCLE peter Mui" wosh lyk.. dying on wen's bed..sudenly got dish msg frm ma daD " wad tym laio now...do u wana cum home o not..?" saw d tym n realsed its wayyy past d tym.. so huriied up ask wen pik 3of us girls home..when reach home..i guess dad was blardy pissed off at me..cuz he dun open d door 4me to cum in ..instead ..my lil bro did.. -_- n he saw how drunk i am n hurry to get me a glass of water.. oh yeah..4got to mention one lil fact ..i as drunk till when i slammed d car door..i jammed my thumb in2 it.. -_- bro took care of me..open m yair con ..giv me drink.. help me "cure" my hand wif d medicine (its stil painn numb tho.. ) switch of d light n tuck me in2 bed..dunno y ..i got dis chun dung.. msg abit of feihua t moi dEar.. n wosh so Sad.. so msg up yun ...(she brought her hp to thailand) tel her avting.. she wosh lyk .so shockeDD!!! n she reply me too ..n msg up mandy tel her avting 2.. she wosh lyk so worried called me up n ask me nt to cry... her CREDIT worhss.. she called me abt 20min neh...so gonna cut alot of cr i gues... so gan dong..

when tokin wif mandy.. i force her say a few stuff dat she dun wana tel me..s.eng hv heard frm rachel ..frmSKOOL...dat moi deArhv been cheatin on me..i dun wana jot down d story ..its jus..simple too painful..i jus felt a well of tears poolin up agn ..n i realiSed..its tym to end eryhtin ..msg him up to end it all.. bt he denys.. but i reali hv no energy to tink of anythin liaohss..so dun say anything mor lorhs.. .

when avthing is lyk. .done..i lay on my bed tryin to sleep... instead...end up cryin agm.. wadda crybaby i am dis dayss... -_- LOL~ n end up tinkin abt our past..i realido loven miss him so mch already ...but wad is said is said.. i cnt take it back ... but erytime i tink of him..i jus cud'nt stop crying... i reali dunno hw anymore....im sure.. my best frens wil help me thru dis.. dey had owez be der 4 me.. =)

tink tink n tink ..n here i am now. ..on9-ing after dad's asleep.. (hope he dun catch me on9 ) n chattin wif pierre.....but...i rreali feel so heartbrokened....

breaking down.......

Life's goin down into tubes agn..yea yeah..peeps out der..u wud tink..y wud i be sho depressed..?when no its cny n i shud b spendin my tym out wif moi frens n gettin my arse high wif happiness..wadeva..i dun feel lyk doin it2day..las2days of cny Wosh fun..bt not todae..ytd while i was outside servin gueSts n im late replyin moi dear..he atually got mad at me..n dun wanna layan me whol day..so dun lAr..he wil cum ard ..i tot..bsyds..it aint even moi fault..n when he got homr arnd 11 i spose..he msg me back n pretend nth is wrong..cBai..am i sum kinda toy..?sum kinda toy n humour me wheneva he FEELS lyk it..n when he dun ..he jus throw me aside til d tym when he feel lyk humourin me agn..?im sho sho sick of him liaohsss..im a gurl..for go'd's sake..dun i deserve to b loved n to b pamperEd..? to b d happiest luckiest gur cosh she got d guy she love most.?nt me..i've shed endless teArs ferr him..tears dat's mch to fill my d bathtub in moi room..the patience i hv ferr him which i nvr hab ferr any1 b4..i control my temper unlyk lastym..flarin it wheneva i feel a TINIEST BIT mad.. i 4gv him on avthing..i try to b patient.. i try to be calm ...i try to be understandin ..but lasnyt..i broke down n cry ..n dats when i realised.. i wil never hv wad i wan n need ...i hv to giv up my hopes n dreams ...i feel so tired liaohss.. im so tired of being strong fer our sake..be patient ferr him to grow up ..n lasnyt...ferr me...evthing is jus...SO over.. for me..

depression

Everynight i lay in bed
thinking until i cry
how can i not be saD?
can someone tell me why?
the depression is killing me
slowly inside my mind
why does nothing goes right?
when i try to be so kind

i think of all the nights
the nights spent crying
i can never be perfect
and i'm sick of trying

i can never fit in
no one accepts me for me
me,myself and i
that's all i an be

nothing i do is right
everything is wrong
but no matter what happens
no matter what i do ..
i will always be strong for you...

oWww.....

Geez..duno wads wrong wif my body..im crampin all over..!!!not to mention 2 black patches of hei ching knock over sumwher when me n dear woshh at office..after bath..lyk..15min ago..my body start shivering n my head start to pening pening..!!!! =( even typin keyboards oso haRd..nt to mention..dear oso got mad at me leh..off fon lagi.. haiss..tink so i gonna blog sum other dae...wana go sleep..even tho i've slept lyk...frm 11pm lasnyt til 3pm in afternoon next dae..(2day actually...)sigh...gonna go back to slepp....

yeashterday n todaeee

loloollOoo..long tym no update my bloggie liao nehh..hehe..hrm..lasnyt was fun...goin out arnd 5pm to yun hse..ask ma dad piCk her up n we went to yen lee..coz cny is DaRN near n i stil got nth2wear..!!!!!=( no nice shirts ferr me tho..but lotsa jeans dat i lurve..but too bad..my " one see 4 love' jeans is too bigg..!no small size leh..n sum d "la ba" nt big enuf i dowan..so settle fer 3 jeans lor..lov d faded one mosT!!!!so expensiv worhhss..$130++ til i ask ferr discount until $100 =P n den when jalan jalan arnd plaZa,saw daddy's car,so find him n ask him bring my "luggage" home..so heaVy..n pull him in2 shoe shop n bought myself a pair of lo heels shoes..kekeke..

after dat..walk till no place go liao..went to milimewah buy drinksn went to d ah bau goldshop..cuz i wana clean my silver necklace which my dear giv me..cos wana wearit on cny ma..hehehe...den went ta hua find kacat n ah siang n go to ccms skool 2geter lor..

we went der too early lor..bt got advantage la..we found seatss..!!n kacat actually bought all of us d fake flowers..one ferr me n one ferr yun...hahah..n den cums kylie..so we gab gab to aste da tym..sudenly my dad msg me if i wan to eat worhh..n he tapau ayamku ferr me n yun cum to ccms bring it 4 us..ahhaha..so gud nehh..amy oni cums when s lion dance omos start lo..go lobby find her..n me n yun n amy watch d whole ting 2geter..after a while..we decided cramping3ppl into 2seats is so uncomfy dat we start walkin arnd..n dunno how..sudenly we were playin GAY games.. ahahaha..!!

ohyAa...we saw ling ling2..!!wahseh..cum bak frm canada so lawa liao ..i keep tinkin who she is cuz she was walkin arnd wif juan juan n ping ping..aiya..omos cnt recognise her liao lar..den when d lion dance finis..makong cum tp pik us up,bring yun home..n bring me n amy to marilyn limteh..tabi n tzewei is der too..n ah hua..hehe..so av1 jus tok awhile..after dat makong pick up ivan chok n send me n amy home lorr..

when reachin home..terus terus msg my dear tellin him im homee..!!who noes...he got mad n dun wana layan me ..but den i was too tired so i fell asleep straight away!!! sleep til 2dae 12pm+ lunch time leh..yun came i dun even noe..when she called me..i tot its lyk ..8am in dmornin lagi..!!>.<>

dats abt it liao norhs..hais.. my face dis 2 days hv a bad turn agn ..mahai.. lucky dad say he's REALLY goin to bring me to d hos 2mr.. if nt..dead luu..=s

oya...ferget one ting..aiya.. makong is leavin to kl work liao lor..til sept den cum bak ..no 1 to humour me liao ..bleh.. he left me wif sum great memories too...here it is...

when i see you,i already one c 4 love
my love for you is sky long land long tym
i used my big pxygen to tell u ....

its so neat..hahah...me n amy n choi were lyk ..keep repeating dis sentence for d whole journey in d car...he tel me dis is how he propose girls worhs..ahah..im jus totally sure d girls he proposed to usin dis few lines wud surely roll on d floor laffin ..LOL ~~~

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In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)

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Gawd..half of it aint even tru .. -_-

phew..another tiring day agn!!i cnt sleep lasnyt!!!dunno y..til4am sumthin den cn sleep arh!!sleep til 5 45 hv to get ready go skool take result liao..after takin result..went to mee stall eat mee n went straight away2 SA skool lor..4registration..saw louey der..tok tok tok while waitin=) when its my turn ..i cnt figure out wad sub i wana take..!sigh~~ i wan to tak bio alot..but i cnt..so bo bien lor.. =(

after finishin doin those stuff n blaaaa.. went home n wait pk to pick me up..hhehe..haVe a AwesomE day 2daE..=P very very super major awesome..DAT awesome..blehh.. ! arnd 5pm or so..wana go home liao ma..when walk out..Saw vanessa,heidi n vaneSsa BF...(lookin so mch younger den her btw ) supoosedly im usin bus go home..bt d bus gone aRhh..!so go wif benny cAr..along wif d 3peeps..to da beach..after dat go home lor.. heheh...

i tink dats abt it ferr 2day lor..lazy update so many liao..so tired 2dae..

Wad a dAyyyy

Lalalaa...here i am again !! lol~~~~ sigH.. wad a dayy ..!! woken up arnd 9sumthin..cos wana go out meet dEar ma..heheh...so get ready folo dad car out lol..!dad go bank4awhile..hvta wait ferr him..when reachin office.. jus play comp games wif dear nehhss..kekke..!after playin games a while ..feel hungry liao marhss..so went bucannerr 4lunch..eat beef steak..vry nice neh..hbt dunno hw to use knife..hahahs..til hand oso tired..moi dear hv to help me cut!!!=P bt den ..he willin oso ma ryt..kekke..

after lunch ...go jalan jalan lor..saw aleX ..!haha..cnt recognise him ler..or mayb my memory poor kua..when goin back to office..went rooftop while den play omp games again lor..dis tym dear lose worhhss..in dynomite..lose liao oso bu ren shu..keep sayin he let me he let me der..cehh ..!!kns laa.. hehehe..

before goin home..got go to pagolak mom mom french fries lo...den go 1st chicken rice wait my mommy neh.. sAw reggie n makong..hahahs..reggie SO FAT liao arh ..!!d hole face round round de..whole waitin car..tok tok wif both of them lo..den go home..

i jus go in d car ONE step...mommy say she wants me go SA or..say bring me register 2mr liao..she wants me to go der study ..n hv gud grades..nshow daddy off worhss...dunno wad hav daddy say to mom lor..till mom paksa me liu ..haiss..looks lyk i got a plan 4 dis yr lol ..!! well.. i feel so happy coz mom hav onfidence in me dat i can do it.. =)

at nyt..at dinner..dad say gimme consolation worh..!! so mayb get abit of money lol..kekekek..so happy.. wana buy prez prez4moi dear neh...tinkin wad to buy tho..eheheh...n on9 n sms wif him lor..so happy lar.. 2mr can meet him again ..but i tink he's angry tho.. =s when i ask him ask pk bring us out..my face kolkap liao bahhh... aiyOr...n he seem so angry liddat ..sms-in de ay oso change liao.. hope 2mr he can resume to normal lo.. blehh...

i Feel so tirted liao neh ..wana sleep nw.. gud nyt.. !!!!!