jessy mcartney cute lei!!!hahaa

know y i oni wants u to wake me up,

cuz i wana hear ur voice the 1st ting i'm awake,

and i'm really happi 2hear ur voice nw at nyt

bcuz ur gonna b the last thing b4 i go to bed

only u'll be the 1st n last ting of my life

you know i really hope dos r ur willingness

or else.....

playin da chuzzle game..vry nice norhs..lyk dos kinda games me play wif moi dear..teehee!bt i recall he dun reali lyk dis game cuz he duno hw to play it..!!ahaha...omg..JESSE MCARTNEY is truly a HuNK!!!so berry de gergous tim!!hahaa...mandy n lenglengg wosh ryt..he's cute.. !!*droolss* nw listenin to his song -beautiful soul..i got even more addicted !!i simply MUST buy da album ..no 2nd tots.. !! hahaa!

shhhheesshh

OooOOo...shiaT..!
wosh too hell moody n pissed off n depressed n Tired as well..
skip moi classes todae
d mob hv been ringin off da hook wif wondering classmates wher m i
lie in bed whole day norhs...dun feel lyk gettin outta it at all
no mood..no apetite..no feelings..completely emotionless..
jus wana b alone..hab even cancelled 2nyt's date wif moi dear fwen amy..
y my life hav to be LIDDAT?
sien ohh..
my mom had been worried sick abt yours truly whole dae 2dae
n not oni dat..keep askin y my period stil haven cum yet
n keep havin dos ideas dat i've been takin 2mch pills n it affects my cycle nw
ochibalaa..
i hope i get it soon too !!!
IM worried she wud get 2nd tot's tinkin im pregnant o smth,considering i've been vomittin n my lack appetite 4 d intake of food..
PARENTS... Geeez..
d lastym when my hi-fi wosh overheat..i wana told my dad abt it ..n end up got accused n asked whther im SMOKIN in da room
hahahaha....ME SMOKINN..????u gotta be kiddin...
WadEVAAaa...im outta here...preferbly catch sum gd movie den sittin here feelin pathetic n sorry 4 myself..ciao!

it's so true that the truth always hurt..
a wound that's healing had now been infected again
doubt it will ever be able to heal now
scars remain bhind
which hurts so muh more then before
memories that stil lingers ard me day n nyt
which will hunt me down wif each passing dae

a love that was once so strong
has now break me mw into so many million pieces
tears which would'nt stop streaming down my face
how i hope i cud stop it sumhow
so many things i regretted
but i guess it just adds on to the list as daes passes by
life definitely misreable

i hope i'm much stronger
to be able to take this blow thats given by you agn
so i wont be so mch weaker then i am b4
im i askin too mch 4 JUS A LIL LOVE FRM U?

i envy others who r able to live thier live so mch better den me
why are they able to find a guy who cud give them 100% happiness that dey pursue
n why cant i ?
am i so different frm them?

mayb all dis times its only my own wishful tinkings
making everything seem so beautiful n perfect
building all these dreams on my own
now its just shattered in just a milli-second
by all those words that stab like knives

i would rather suffer frm external wounds
at least there r medication to make me feel better
rather then all thse heartbreaks
wif no cures at all
please..just lemme 4get all of these unhappiness n tears
its just hurting to be goin thru all of dis al over n over agn

i may be having a brave front
with the smiles n laughter..
but my heart had shed end tears..
why cant i be happy 4 just one dae..?
m i so un-worth it..?
all i wan is just to b love wif all his heart by the one i love..
is that so hard?

i;ve raised my hite flag..
im so lost now..
no1 to fall back on..
my world have already crash ..
living in darkness

who will be able to bring the real grace back..
the eva so cheerful optimistic gur
who cud turn all negative tings in her life
into all those lessons after those falls
puttin a smile on my face instead of a mask

so wads sorry?
the word i hate to hear DAMM MOST
sorry doesnt mean a ting..
esp when u just plainly saying sory to get outta trouble
n at the same tym..get wad u wan
why bother saying sorry?
after dat u'll jus repeat the whole proess agn
so..
why bother saying sorry?
when the heart's already broken...

nice? dos tingie wos quoted by elena...i jus copy it..wif few changes n additional stuff of mai own.. it reflects me ryt nw..

shiat..

was supossin to b studyin..bt wosh pissed off so went out to play instead..n my mood lightens..tee hee!went to simpur eat eat drink drink wif mandy..n den hor..we went shoppin..saw so many stuff i LURPS ..........!!!!!!frm 2dae onwards..muz save av penny of moi allowance to get all da tings i wan!!SERIOUSLY!!!=)) i'm too fuggin tempted..den went to pagolak to lim teh lor..n den meet up moi dear 4 a few min's ..n went home..bt after i reach home..nw my mood sag agn..shiat..gonna go do my hw to lighthen off..or i'm gonna get seriously pissed..

suddenly todae my mood took a turn..im so happy happy happy..lalala~ hahah..noe why?NOE WHY?cuz awal awal mornin me n moi dear made up frm ytd quarre..n 2nd..went out wif mandy!!!tee hee!!hv fun norh..went to pizza hut n grab a beef lasagna n honey chickin wings n oreo dQ iceCream 4me n a cone 4 mandy..ate ryt der at pizza hut n kepoh kepoh kepoh..sit 4quite lng tym b4 my bum starts 2 sore n wanna shop instead..=P i tink mandy was waitin4me to say "let's Go" cuz when v go kan..she sed"nw gan yen go liao la.." hahaha..went shoppin ard d whole town norh..seria sold alot of tingies dat i wana buy!!!!d pink dolphin pillow(tink so gettin a blue1 for yun4her bday..teehee!)n sum pink piggie toys..so cute!!hahah..tho d shape abit bengkok=P n den saw sum clothes i lurps too..bt nt enuf to desperate 4it..haha..lol~ n saw alot of nice nice pins&brooches 4 my tudong!!!!!=)) its in da shape of stars nehh!!!cnt wait to go bak seria n get it..teehee!!after shoppin,v went to ta hua lim teh..n went to akira take mandy's hifi..n saw sum mp3 der..fall in lurp wif da red1..tho i lurp ipod stil mch mor=P n so cheap too..nt even $100..bt d mb abit too small i tink..n ard 5pm..went bak to her hse lor..korek ard her room n wore her pink dress!!fall in luv wif it..ahaha..dad pick me up at7pm leh...tee hee!!so happy todae...=))

hmpff..

hrm..eatin my breakfast ryt dis min..n bloggin..ahaha..suposed to get ready 4 skool de..bt 2dae dno d tudong tinG hua o wat ler..it was perfect d 1st tym..=)) din sleep arh lasnyt..my complexion lyk shit man..lyk my fAce aint grow enuf ance..nw i got d look of a sum1 who dun sleep for 1 week..shiat shiat shiat=s ytd was tinkin abt few stuff norhxx..problems n sum stuff i told i saw yTd..i feel really hopeless lorh..many friends..bt no1 to turn to=(( den i suddenly tink of my jie jie..wana tok2her..bt nw she's in kl!!!!!hais =(( when tinkin of her..i suddenly took da tapes of my childhood..all 3 tapes..startin from 2 or 3 yr old liddat..n watCh..haha...cnt help laffin out loud in dos silly parts=) n saw alot of footages of me n my cuz..nw i've realised..whn both me n my cuz were young..v were laffin so hapiily..so carefree-ly..bt as v grown up..dos laughter died down..n its d serious talks till dawn..v nv really laff dat kinda happily anymore..frm she met leslie..al sorta probs cum..n i cnt blif hw dat Creep used her n yet she wana b wif him..all dis tym she's sufferin herself..while mEE??i got my happy tyms alryt..bt dey left too..nw der's too mch probs n pressure goin ard..hrm..i rmb dat cikgu rasidah said to me when im laffin if how how n stephz at my locker..she called me a "hapy-go-lucky" IF ONLY SHE KNOWS...hahaha.. laffing make me 4get probs half of da tym...bt d mo i'm alone..all dos tings will jus flash bak to me..haiii...ltr after sch gonne meet up mandy lim teh...finally gonna c her liao..all dis months!!v haven had a heart-to-heart tok 4 quite a lng tym..n v got alot of catchin up to do..tee hee!

wadeva..

smth awful happen 2dae in d afternoon..it bothered me alot..well..HELL lot..i jus hope..wadeva i seen wif my own 2 eyes..is nth but tinkin too mch..

HuuuRrrr...sleepy orh..vry vry sleep orh -_- coz ytd i cnt sleep mar..hvin few probs..so stay up moz of da nyt ..geezz..woke up to find my complexion lyk hell..went to sch as usual..tee hee..aftr sch at 12 30..went out meet moi dear..n giv him c sum pics dat he wanted lorhss..after dat ..v went to kFc hav our lunchess...tee hee!!! Saw heidi mei2 wif her fwens at town in sch uniform!!!=)) ir reminds me of da days in smss when i myself used to do dat after Sch..lol~den hor..whn v were eatin..moi dear say.." later v go back office play dynomite arh..i wana CHALLENGE u" =P i sui bien so v played dynomite lor..hahaha...vry funny...3 rounds 3 rounds he kalah to me..n den at last he got "small gas" abt it.. HAHAHAH... msg moi mammy to pick me up at 4 45..skali ler..she cum at 5 15!!!stand in front of chicken rice whole half hr arh!!!=(( bag so heavy agn ler..=(( tee hee..bah ..dats it loo...vry sleepy..wana fast fast finish my hW n go to sleep.. muakis.. ! (",)

yuuu huuuu!!!

jus woke up..eatin char sau pau ryt now..nyam nyam!!ytd was wholesome fun=)) hvn seen amy for almos 3 months..til lasnyt..v deided to meet up..went 2pagolak hv steamboat..eat our hearts out..kepoh-in frm d min i step down my car in2 her hse til yus send me home..n took loadssss of pics..actually..v took mor den 100pics..bt i'll jus load a few "nice nice" one here...lol~

Me n moi dahhling..in her hse bathroom..!!!

in pagolak..eatin out steamboat halfway n took dz..d waitress dunno hw to take pic har..!so blurr -_-

me drinkin Soup..was too full to eat anymore..ahahaa

Mee...peaccceee! =P

a vain pic of amy acting cuteee!=P

the vainness in us in pagolak TOILET..sot ryt haha

herr...she sed me vain,bt d mo i went in2 da loo..she took it herself -_-

a me me meee meee..

nicE?bak to amy hse liao lurr..taken upstair livin room..kekeke

hrm..i tink dis pic 2 big..cnt b rotated..lol..its her huggin me n i took dis.. keke

dis is when Yus came..n 3 of us took pics 2gtr...tee hee!

de lovely couple..lol!

yus took dis 4 us.. before goin home..hehhee

back bak !=))

haven blog ferr quite awhile nows arh..had been bz nehxx..todae wosh vry awful worhh..me n amal n julre were talkin in socio class nehxx..den hor..amal wosh tokin abt something abt our fren's past til v were so absorbed in our onvo dat v 4get all abt da tcher...d tcher vry pissed off leh..she look 8 us wifout saying anythin awhile..n den jus pack up her tings n lefT!!!!!*gulp* she wosh really pissed off..=s went home early n den go bath n went out meet moi dear lorh..end up playin games whol noon..kekeke.. n den at 5 30..went to mien dang n eat moi dinner..kekekee...sleepy liao nehh..wana go bedroom watch tv n o o looo...ciao.. ! sum recent pics taken fe days ago.. kekeke.. so lui nehh .. !

Mee..stephz took dis when im msg-in moi dear..ahahah

me n stephz.. lui lui yang..my face =((

missy..kepoh..n Graceful Grac (as dey all it.. lol=s)

back back =)) currently situated in moi dear's office norhs..supoosin to b doin moi research on haze 4 gp presentation..bt tou ser tou ser 1st kekeke..

1 may 2005-sundae.. =))
phew..went to da hos to visit stephs norhs..n she wosh as kepoh s eva!!obviously nth wrong ler=)) bt go wif ahmad car..n der's even3more of his lako friends at d bhind..so fuggin smelly tim!!n dat ahmad wosh so fuggin stingy on his car fuel...he dunno wad is "HOT" n "SMELLY" one har..so at last beh tahan..i told him i wud pay his CAR FUEL...geez -_- n den at nyt horh..went to steamboat lorhs..its moi fren andy bday ma..so alan khew..me ..chiu yen..marcus..louey..ah siang..monkey chan n 2 mor guys i dunno who.. vry nice d tom yam soup =)) bt arh ...its SO FUGGIN HOT LEHH !!!v r nt situated under d fan bah!!n dat marc hor..throw a beetle on me!!!whic make me scream..nt too loud tho..keke..n den i jus pluck d bug out of my shirt n threw it on his face!! lol~ took a few group pics too !! kekekee...

2 may 2005-monday
supossed to went out meet moi dear..bt v quarre...keke..so end up goin out gai gai wif qing wa n mich mich... kinda fun lor ferr me..bt mich say its boring!!!duno lar.coz v went to chms watch d bb match mar..bt when i reach der..d 2 ah poh..leng leng n vanessa..n along wif yang's cuz.. san san ..all of us were laffin n havin fun..while qing wa n mich jus sat der n watch =s after a while...v went to yi yien lim teh wif derrick n cecelia norhs..round round awhile..den go home lorhs..

Me n missy..at d bb match=P pretty kan her? hehehee..

A candid pic of me n lenglengg n vanvan..actually wana get them to look at d cam..tapi bcum liddat ..nice ryt..tee hee!

so damm UGLY n FAT la..usin qing wa's okey specs n took it in yue yuen when lim teh...ugly arh!!!hais..~

4 may 2005- wednesday
ryt here ryt nw=))..im suposin to be researchin ferr my presentation..bt im here bloggin!!! =P anywaes..gotta go research 1st..later aidah kill me lor.. keke..! ciao ..!