Today last day of 2005 ler....also exactly one year since i started bloggin neh...=x

Actually too much things wanna write about wat..jumbled feelings..or happening things these two days, but no time..will post everything when i'm home from miri yeah? can't wait for jie to bring me all ard tho not very happy today....

Anywaes... chow mei and vonnie.. dun let your ass burn yeh? kekes. Happy New year to Everyone. =)

Oh wua lan, i have'nt been bloggin like.. for three weeks plus! =( if chow mei and vonnie no blow me i also no realise le, thanks worh, hehes.

let's see.. obviously i forgot most of the things i done le =s

22 dec # worked as usual lor, and oh yeah! chow mei..not need worry abt the convo when i went into the toilet la, so far nothing happens anywae =D after work went to get my shoes for empire..got a nice lovely shoe le, hehes.. and drop by to the new boutique chow mei intro me.. thanks alot wor my deaR friend, now i felt i'm gonna spend alot money agn.. hahas.. saw the boots she mention which is like.. P U R FE CT for my dress..and saw alot nice clothes too! Xin is so tempted =( makong brought me and yun shoppin mar, then after that we went to supasave, cos i wana eat kebab.. finally get the chance to eat my beloved kebab le!! * smiles * picked up Benny from Lumut..and headed home.

23 dec # Felt day was passin SOOOO slowly, was so excited about empire nia, work was ok, nth much to do..dear came to see me durin my lunch hour, felt so happy le, hehes. After that time started to itch agn=( till around 3-4 pm le, dno too excited or what, msg so much to dear askin if he got remembers bring this and that..in the end then settle down le ba after dear assure me=P went to get soap for dear and me after work le, since dear cnt stand perfumey thingies and i love it. hee hees. Went home, yun have'nt reach my home le, so took a long long bath, tot that my bro o mom will tell me ma, when yun's here.. but NOOO...when i finished bath she's long ago in my room..laffin at me for bathin so long =( We then tried on dresses and then got ready to go richard house for bbq-ing. hehes. Bbq was nice wor...wanna bbq agn le..hopefully sooner than later =( went home earlier, cos need to pack and so on..but in the end near midnyt then pack le, cos my cuz called me up askin if i wan the guess watch for my 18th birthday and then he talked wif mommy... straight after that talk with dear agn le, hahas. packed and went to sleep..

24 dec # My big day!!! wee hees! =D everyone so excited can, pk and dear came and picked me up at 9 am, then yun..and headed to labi or sg. liang? to the stall and eat our breakfast nia, and then on our way to Empire le ba, on the way me kept askinf if are we there are we there? haahs. Reached there ard 11am i think..and wanna check in..was frustrated at 1st le, with the receptionist..the stupid deposits and all.. so ziak sai..in the end, everythin is settled. Woo.. i should say, the BEST about the rooms is da comforter, so fluffy can! wishin to have one for my bedroom=( and the toilets.. yeah, i gotta say.. the toilets are most beautiful >.< me and dear one room nia, yun and pk another, so happy there was'nt any disagreeements at pk side.. phew..went bowling le, din get to play mch dat day, its my first time bowling..and i like it !!!=D played about 30 rounds nia us.. ahahs..time flies le, suddenly its 1pm so had to get back to the reception pei yun to get thier bedroom key, since their room wasnt ready in the mornin ba...after that everyone changed and we headed to the pools =D spend the rest of noon there le, so nice.. forgotten to bring my googles and is wearin my contacts into the water, i could'nt go underwater or go any deeper.. dear carry me swim here and there nia, hahahs. sO fun. =) after swimmin and playin went back to our rooms, bathed, and rest awhile nia, me and dear got some quality time together just the two of us=) hehes. Meet up, went to The mall for while, dear need to get something, while me and yun shopped ard for awhile, headed back to empire, bought the midnyt kingkong tickets, hehes. almost thought it's full lefting only the very front seats, spotted four seats together NOT in the front, and bought it=D Went to Li Gong hv dinner le, me wanna eat at pantai restuarent buffet actually..but not ngam taste for pk le, hais~~ really felt so syng, really hope one day dear will bring me back there and eat =( after eating, went to take pictures wors, time flies le, have'nt taken much but already nearly 10pm+ rushin to the cinema le, lucky no late tho, bought popcorns, and dear went just to buy the king kong cup.. gek dao-.- after watchin the movie, headed back to hotel and ZzZzz le ba..

25 dec # woke up around 7am+ ler, i think me and dear were movin ba, that's why..hahas. felt so xing fu le, d moment wake up can see dear beside me=D was in bed slackin till 8 30 ba, dear called yun and pk get up, and headed to atrium cafe for breakfast. the foods so nice can! but still..nt as nice as what i wishes at pantai lor.. after that me and dear decide go bowling ler, hahas. just me and dear take turns play. guess what? i won!!!=D hehes. me won dear le..hehes. After that, dear and pk go for basketball, to pas time cuz me and yun wanna tried out their sauna. wan the jacuzzi actually =( but they dun allow us wear towel go go, well..all girls anywae, scare wat? after yun and i wrapped up in towels, headed to the sauna room, saw de jacuzzi right beside, was standin there and decidin whether we should break the rules and just tou tou go in with towels nia, but who noes..the ppl ryt there watchin us, cheww......at 12pm check out le ba, and headed to manggis to do sime shoppin. was supposed to buy nice cny clothes le, but in the end bought one jacket and 1 adjoinin tshirt >.< also went to kiulap and ate at Chai gen xiang.. well..i'm hungry ma!! headed home, talked with dear awhile when he's awake, then both of us went to bed early le..

26 dec # stayed home whole day, was sleepin till 3pm le=P I'm suprised lasnyt i'm still be able to sleep.. and yes i was able to..ahahs. ate the leftover turkey myh mom made when woke up...chew..left just lil for me le =( they all eat the rest up liaO, so nice cn.. hehes! so many my pa's friends' wife's make turkey for us in the past, or in church or in any open house i went, mom's turkey still the best, proly bcuz she use like.. 6-7 big packages of the creamy milk to marimade the turkey first, before cookin and addin flavour..hehes.

hahas. my post damn long today. vonnie, chow mei, dun let my post set your eyes on fire yeh? hehes. Belated merry chrismas to both of you. muacks. <33

Xin is very very happy =D tho got nagging thoughts at behind, tryin to force the thoughts outta my head ba..

Yesterday got off!! wee hees, so happy cn! hated being in the office, well..nw i admit..i LOVE sch life!

Went to miri with my family yesterday ler, wakey early early mornin and get ready, spent most of the time talkin of d fon with dear tho =P 9 am and we're on our way down, went to 2020 eat breakfast le, saw my big uncle and whole family!!!! so everyone sit down and eat and talked together, well..i din talk much tho, even to my lovely big cuz..cos...i was busy E A T I N G!!! Practically forgotten hw GOOD is miri dim sum *winks*

By 11am had to go for eye check up nia, waited so long ler!!! In the end it's me, my bro and mommy's turn, luckily my eyes are healthy..hahas.

Went to the old pa sak ba, cos wanna get the super fresh sugar cane water, how i wish BRUNEI got this kinda nice sugar cane nia, went to parkson and shopped aftr that, bought alot =D Even got clarins sample, hahas... kinda addicted to samples liao ba, lol ~

Went to imperial too, bt din buy anythin cuz i was to tired to shopped liao! hahas..just sit down and eat at kfc nia, and bought only one thing after that.

Reached home kinda late i guess and talked with dear, hahas... was supposed to go to sleep together one ba, then i opened my beloved SOPHIE KINSELLA novel, yeap.. that's right.. i got it!!! =D so happy can. hehes. just intentioned to open the bk and flip thru it, but without knowin was readin till late, forgot the time to sleep le ba, hehes.

Wakey very late today, bt who noes, dear woke even more later then me le..called dear wakey him up, hahas.. had a talk, eat moi lunch and papa asked if i wanna go seria, so yea.. went seria asked mandy and yun out, hehes. shopped ard nia, and went to coffeshop have a drink, anna joined us too =) had much fun chattin, it's been so long we never had a girl's day out le ba =)) ordered..err..french toast? nice ehhhhh....

Straight after that.. went to mien dang and hab satays, hahas.. but hor, kb satay still better than seria one lar, went yun's home aftr that, and took pics =D

Hrm.. kinda lazy to post it up nw, mayb tomorow, hahas..=D

* dreadin work tomorrow *

不要因為也許會改變
就不肯說出那美麗的誓言
不要因為也許會分離
就不敢求一次傾心的相遇
總有一些什麼
會留下來的吧
留下來做一件不滅的印記
好讓
好讓那些 不相識的人
也能知道
我曾經怎樣深深的愛過你

Praying H A R D....

I hope evrything goes my way D way i planned,

Please let me suceed...

Had a happy day le yesterday =)) bt sumhow, yesterday i'm enjoyin being myself in the office, wee hees...why? cos i'm all aloneeee.

After work yun mommy come pick me le ba, headed to kb Helen saloon to have our hair steamed. actually was s'posed to go maggie le, bt forgot that maggie is closed on monday!!! =s well, most suprising when we are there, vicky was workin there already! =D she is also the one responsible to wash my hair, hahas, she's alryt, at least better than the one who washes yun's hair, i always hated her. Saw quite a few nice curly hairstyles nia, can you feeell? my butt is itchy agn, lol =P

After steamin we head to bucaneer had our dinner, ordred two beef steaks and one mushroom soup to share nia, so filling=) really love that place, reminds me so mch of me and dear, hehes... tho we were so so so full already, but we still ordered cheesy garlic breads and ANOTHER mushroom soup and somehow managin to eat them all too, hahass.. full till practically cnt walk arh us =s

Ask mommy come pick us up, before that we went to Cd shops and check out, haahahs, hand itchy agn, bought 2 Cds le, but no regrets, loving it so mch! parade yun to the whole kb's CD shop nia, just to look for my CHRISTIAN WUNDERLICH album.. bt sadly... dun hv!!! =( who know wher got tel me kays? I'm cravin for it ..

Was now at work, feeling more and more sien, hating it more and more due to some reasoms, for you peeps out der, mayb you will think my job is easy..but INSIDE of it, u dun wanna know what happened..

the only HAPPINESS i felt today is only my lunch time..shih wei askd me and yun out to lunch together ba..went to pagolak and have our lunch, the food i order = SUCKS!! honestly.. took quite a few pics using shih wei's cam, hahas...hopefully i got the pics soon, speakin of pics, i din upload those pics taken few days ago hor.. hahahas...............

Year's almost ending.. suddenly i thought bak to when my blog starts, i've been an active blogger for a year!!! wee hees! remembered my resolutions, decidin to take it out and read .. hahass =))

1)I Wana Let My haiR gRow..At leaSt tiL d Waist-aBov-a-BiT
my hair DID grow alot i supposed, but it's still nowhere near my waist frm my trimmin, and gonna trim it agn soon, once i have my COURAGE..

2)Muz leArN to Save monEy n nOt wAstIn theM S i LYk..
hrm, i never get ard to save any big bucks, but since dear scold me everyday abt my money usage, ive learn to controlled =D I now don't get the first thing i saw on the shop shelf which i like..learnt to think le ba,hehe

PaSs GcE..If gEt in2 SA,I muZ stUdy haRd frM NoW oN..8lEast all "b" s..coz i DuN WannA RegReT NymOr LyK mY GcE..I noE i goNnA faIl=(
Damn...i not only dun get a gd result, but had stopped sch as well.. hais.. si beh set pai..

4)hOpe My relaTIonsHip wiF him Can Get beTa,LoVe Him MoR,quareL leSs..
hrm, it does get better i guess..i'm contented ryt now=)) and i've made a few changes to myself, and givin him more love.. so yea =) would gv this, erm.. 40% sucess? lol~

5)I wAnNa RcV MANY MANYpRezzIEs Esp 4 mY bdAY..=P
well...i dun have mch pressies this yr, compared with last yr..i hope next yr will get gd pressies ba.. heehees.

6)DIET !!!!!!!!!
urm..let's skip =P

7)lEaRn tO conTroL My teMpeR n Not fLarIn it wheNeVa Av lIl tInGs maKe me anGrY
hrm, mayb just halfway..cos i kept most things in my heart nw, even with dear, my friends... i cn still look happy in front of them..let'sjust gv it 50% hahas..

8)HoPin I caN beG my DaD gimmE tAke licEnsE
totally forgotten =s

9)Can chanGe my LooKs
i think i look pretty ugly now dou...

10) HopIn Can b a bEtA DaughThEr...
hrm.... I DUN THINK SO !!! hahas..

I think i dun achieve mch le ba this year.. but it's ok,cos in my 17 yrs of life, i now had a aim..and hoping i cn use one year time to achive all my dreams, wee hee..

As predicted, happy happy day =D

One of me and dear's wishes come true nia, or couple hp lines =) or rather, T W O wishes, we are goin to empire for chrismas and our 1yr 5month anniversary celebration..Wees! =P so happy can..

Went meet dear in front of DST when i'm off nia, in the process of gettin our lines, was kinda pissed nia, we waited the long queue for like...so darn long? before it's our turn? And when it's out turn, i dun have my IC with me, kns le, use dear IC cnot, so in the end called mommy bring my IC to me nia..

Head back to DST agn after gettin my IC, this tym the office is quiet, supposingly vry gd ryt? NO! our no. was skipped! had to wait like so damn long agn, du lan, wth..first come first serve right? pissed la..

In d end, it's finally our turn lor, and got our lines.. happy le!!! =D went to eat something cos i'm like..so so hungry since i dun eat for the whole day..and then headed back to office and spend quality time 2gtr =D

Evening, together with dear, adrain and makong we went moi nam have tea ba, den we go tamu visit yun yun, hahahs! Saw CHOW MEI too! After tt went home le =D

Haiss, dno why, i'm sick !!! =(( flu-ing and coughin arh =(( si beh nt happy with it, 2mr gonna go bandar shoppin with my peeps, weee hees!

Feeling happy, H A P P Y, happy, H A P P I I I I today.....=D

Felt like Crying now de ba.. In everyone's mind, in their hearts, am i so useless to them?

Why do whatever i wanna do, there are so many obstacles in front of me? Obstacles that i can never overcome..

I really felt so dumb, so stupid, so useless being in this world..

All i want in my life is to fulfill all my dreams, my ambitions.. but there's always something i can't overcome..All i want in my life is to to what i wanna do to fulfill my life to enrich my life, is that so hard?

Yea, i admit, i'm not some rich moneybags where i can do anythin by a slap og my hand with money in it.. like my BOSS, a gd example.. the richness they are, can practically suffocate your lungs..

I can never achieve my dreams..my life ambition which no one knows about.. Everyone treat me like i'm some kinda child who dunno how to take care of myself.. YOU ALL nv let me have a chance to take care of myself how do i learn to take care of myself?!?!?!.......

Now i have a aim in me, whateva i do, i will do my best, and i won't let regret comes to me, whatever happens agn ..

As for the rest of it...i will prove it, my aim in 2006..i must achieve all i want to do..no matter how painstakingly it's gonna take..i WILL.

Woot, these two days busy till no time blogged nia..

Tuesday # Worked as usual, of course, can NEVER get away from it de =s no matter hw mch i tried. After work Yun and makong and adrain come to fetch me up de ba...disturbng and laffin at me while i'm talkin on the phone with a customer...after that, locked up, and makong brought me home to change clothes...Since they decided wanna tea for awhile nia, so went to yue yuen lor, since i'm c r a v i n g for the chao mee goreng der, damn nice can!! After that walked ard, and went to bodyshop 2gtr, that's when me and yun BOTH realise together..the so called " reality "... Fuggingly right in front of us..but i dun wish to talk abt it anywaes..

Suddenly, dunno what happen, we were just s'posed to go to Marilyn to SEE the cakes, well... See Huh.. in the end we sit down and eat two cakes agn, hahas.. bluberry cheese cake and chocolate fudge cake..the cheese cake aint all that up to my standard nia, but the choco fudge cake was nice can!! mayb gonna use that cake for our b'days? ahhas..since that's the cake we both agreed le...

After cak-ing, headed home nia, had a small accident agn =(( some old malay lady knock into our car, right at my car door arh!!! dun worry, i still alive..hahas..after everything is done headed home nia and had a B I G dinner agn!! =s Nt that it's nt nice or anythin, we had a fillin dinner, just that we are just sooo..Sooooooooo...Full. Mommy especially cook crab in honour of yun nia, good hors=) in the end, we still eat alot anywae.. hahas..

Spent the nyt in ma room, and talkin about feelings topic and suddenly it go to our past.. took all our old letters out nia.. and we were laffin so hard at our imaturity ..lol` realy could'nt believe that's how we were when we were young..lol`

WEdnesday # A G a I N, work as usual, kinda beh song if u asked me.. forget it la, den homed and take a bath, it's time me goin to yun's house for dinner.. AGAIN..her MOM also cooked crab for me..wua lua..our moms psychic issit =s at least the crabs are cooked in a diff recipe, mommy cook black pepper crab and her mom cook chili crab. hers is just as nice.. we ate the crabs for nearly One and half hr ar!! =D

Talked with dear on the phone nia, he could'nt study.. and then me and yun start takin our V a I n pics.. alot of them..ahahas.. will post them when i had the time aits..

ToDay # Dear's big big exam nia, hope he won't be nervous and will do well.. gd luck dear.. muacks =*

Tiring arh..

Work as usual yesterday, after work went home, take a bath and eat papa's new recipe ( yeahs, my dad cook de!=D) urm..Thai salad tungfen..Was so darn nice yeahs! that i took one serving after another, by the time makong came to fetch me, had already have about f i v e servings? =P

Headed to Seria and fetch yun yun, wua la, this gur arh, tipu everone lar, fat liao fat liao, thinner than before got lar, hahas! Since both me and yun already full, and makong bo lui, me and yun decided to tried out cakes nia, for our bday de..ordered french fries, tiramisu and chocolate cheese cake to share together..BUT... the cakes tastes like s h i t.. no kidding >.<>.< went home str8 away go to bed lor, was so darn tired!

Tonyt yun gonna be at my home whole nyt for dinner after i work ba, wee wees! =P

Wua lua, one week plus din blog le ba..=s miss my bloggin! but well...din get to blog cuz....was in office whole day kissin the comp screen would rather do something else when i'm OFF work.. lol`

Lemme see, what happened these days.. hrm..

Latest : Yun is back!! So damn happy can..wee hees=D having so many plans together, simply can't wait..=)) Was talkin on the phone with yun for hours nia last nyt, but din get to talk till morning like lastym cuz i'm simply too tired! =s so dropped to bed at midnyt already.. weets..

Yesterday spend the whole day at home nia, as for Kyrie, so sorry i could'nt go to your party.. veli veli sorry, dun hv transport ba..just spend the whole day watchin " love story in Harvard " . Was s'posed to go tea with mandy ba, but den hor, went out kinda late so dun wan le ba, ngam ngam dad askd me go ayamku restaurent eat ba, so NICE! Esp the black pepper beef, loving it, slurps! =P

Sophie Kinsella new book is F I N A L L Y out in Miri!! Could'nt wait to get it le ba, din managed to get it the lastym when i went to Miri, cuz my money not enough le, cost $72 =(( boo, next week will get it le ba, hee hees..

Woots, finally my UNREST DAYS were over!!! Three days i din sleep much liao le =s

This week got to meet dear three times nia!! so happy can..first, it's the unexpected date at the mall, second, the night of his birthday which i gave him a biggie suprise, and third, today of course =))

Lemme start from the beginnin, on 16 nov, i din sleep well cuz i was thinkin what shud i get for dear, something that's MEANINGFUL and ORIGINAL.. at midnyt, wish him a happy b'day and suddenly..inspiration strikes, i always only get nice ideas last min =((

On 17 nov, work as usual, asked makong to bring me and he's ok with it, so for then, my plan is smooth =D picked me at 6 30pm nia, and rushed to shop cos i'm afraid the shop will close early, well, who knows ryt..=s and when i'm done gettin everything i need, proceed to his home le..wee hees..gave him a call, ask what he wishes to do now, and wallaa!! he said it out so i asked him.. " Dear arh, den u wanna consider opening ur front door lemme in or not le, cos i'm outside oh.." he thinks i tipu him agn le..hahas.. had a gd nyt with each other le.. and ard9pm went to urm..fresh air cafe with dear and makong have tea..both the boys talk about CARS so happily nia, i suspect they both forget i'm beside liao..ahahahs.. after that, went home, talk on the phone with dear for awhile.. and start preparing my pressie for dear le.. =D so din sleep much nia..

On 18 nov, nth mch happens, just the usual, but when i got home, i'm damn hurried and busy, till i dun even have tym eat dinner le..had to made many many stars for the first pressie..about 400+ ba..made till my hand so painful nia, do so mch at the same tym, not oni that, had to made the egg too >.< the egg information will be kept confidental, but while i was preparing it...all the pain i gone thru.. well.. i can just tell you it's not pretty and make you wanna gag =s Everything was oni finally done perfectly at 2 am nia..

Today, Went to work, asked makong to pick me up after that, and went to buy a cake for dear..and creep to the third floor of office and hid the cake ther..that's the second suprise i gave dear..he only saw it when we go upstairs =D blow, cut and eat the cake of course..wee hees.. and then we went into the room and discuss about our empire holiday stuff.. when he's mid doin research on the prices..i went into my bag and took out third suprise.. the pressies for him..reep behind him and gave it to him..wee hees...happy that dear loves evrythin i given him ..

Spend the whole noon with each other nia le, and evening went to pasar malam and bought chi pi ku 2gtr..wee hees...

and NOW, i'm gonna drop to bed early..=D

Feeling so weak now.. Really dunno what had happened, was just goin thru my normal things.. and suddenly i jus vomitted.. not for once too.. i think i vomit about half an hour..

Felt so xing ku now.. and there's no one at home..

Was feeling so empty, so neutral..

I've been thinkin, mayb i had accepted it after all..

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Day was aiight, but right now, i'm dead BORED, why? Cos i'm all alone at home, my whole fam had went to miri to enjoy, while i'm here, bored outta my skull, maybe i should'nt have cancelled the dinner, but i felt so sick being out now, i jus wanna stay at home and rest, i have not even eaten my mom's cookin for almost one week!!! =(( miss it leh..

My latest addiction : kimchi. Yeap. That's right. korea food. =)) FINALLY i gt the chance to try it, was absolutely superb i tell you. Well, for me anywae, Isabella is right, not all people can eat kimchi, cos it has a distinct taste, it's just whether you like it or you don't.. now, I'm simply addicted to it. Lui brought to office put in fridge so he can eat, since he's korean anywae, while ME, was feeling so addicted that i can't eat breakfast or lunch without kimchi. lol~ It's gonna finish soon, from the way i'm eatin..hahahs, best? It's originally from Korea in which he brought frm the last tour, hahahs..

I'm so short memory right now, i could'nt evn remember what i did yesterday, all i could remember is skippin work to have a luxury in the saloon, and watchin
the new Andy lau movie. It's really nice!! Totally no regret watchin it..wee hees.. and i absolutely love the Fulfilment of Promise necklace..it's so meaningful aites, but it must be original ;) just like how i wanted plato's eternity bracelet, but too bad that's only available in Europe, i think..

Finally got the song that i want frm Yus, really reflects me so much..

Sometimes
as I live upon my island
Cut off from emotion and its pain
That's when
I am tempted by the waters
Waters that can take me far away....

Yea.. get it?

So hungry right now.. no one to cook for me, hais.........gues i'm gonna go hungry stomach tonight...which is good anywae.. since i'm such a SHAME ..

Yesterday tiring day for me can!

Was at work yesterday, just the normal stuff, but the atmosphere still aint too good so i was just keepin quiet, till around 12pm Isabella brought me to bandar to work with her!! Wee hees!! was so happy can, cos can finally get away frm the office..

Before heading to Bandar, went to kaybee and help Isabella develop pics in Nan Yang, while she made some errands at Pan Bright, while I'm there, saw someone can, make me so si beh bad mood bah, and well, after awhile it's forgotten cos Isabella talked so mch with me, lol ~ talk till we were nearly at seria and have to turn baQ and return to kb AGAIN cos she forgotten take things frm her friend.. haiss..

anywae.. up we go again.. for the 2nd tym =s

When reachin Sg. Liang, or issit Labi? I'm nt so sure la, Isabella brought me to a stall with the best kueh tiau.. it was really nice!!! I wish i could have a second plate eu noe =(( And there saw Kah Soon with his friends agn, lol ~

After finishin our lunches, we proceed to Bandar lor, the journey was kinda fast le, cos i fell asleep in the car!!! Hahahas..went to Continental, Wing-on and Ken travel agencies, basically, all the outbound agencies nia, hahas..

Hrm, speakin of agencies, a few days ago my boss asked me to call to the three agencies and asked bout their korea tour pricings, was kinda stupid at dt tym, and i told Nelson of Wing-on my office No. !!! =s Hrm, i dunno if he find out the truth or what, when Nelson was talkin to Isabella about those korea tours.. the 1st thing they discussed is WHO asked for the korea tour enquiries..

Isabella : Hello Nelson, how are you, it's been awhile since we last met.

Nelson : oh yea! I'm doin gd, hw abt you? And whose this? Your sister?? (noddin to me)

Isabella : No No, she's just my assistant, xin xin ( she called my chi name )

Nelson : Oh!! your assistant!! she's pretty young isnt she.. * smilin with me*

(continue talkin abt non-related topics )

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Nelson : We are not sure about the dec bla bla bla.. ( forgotten sed wat) but we had a few people enquiring for it already, just recently GRACE had enquire for it, did she called ur office?

Isabella : No no, she did'nt ..so is she confirm at your there ?

( continue to blarrrrrrrrrrrrrr )

Hahas, what you think? Is Nelson suspectin or trying to imply something? lol ~

Then hor, after the last visit to Ken travel, where i spend most of the time in the toilet lookin at my beautiful hair =P Isabella went to meet her friends and dropped me at the mall to meet Dear. So unexpected nia..wee hees..and just walk here walked there lor, hehehes..

Was then picked up at nearly 6 45pm, and headed home, My lasteness cause my friends to wait me nearly one hr plus!!! =(( they're so so hungry, well, i am too..hahas.. took a super fast bath and headed out,i think the minutes i'm home isnt even more than 15min -_-

Head to Ayamku restaurent had our steamboat, finally leh! I can eat my Tom yam steamboat, was NICE!!! very very nice!! We had a vry gd time diggin our foods and all, untill....the waiter wanna kicked us out cos there is no morfe customers and wanna close up!!! Wua lan, see us lil kids good to bully har issit!! And it's only like.. 9 35pm? Apalah...We stall there till nearly 10 then we gan yen go anywae.. Hahahsss..

Round round abit cos we dunno wher we wanna go, and suddenly remembered our past times when we used to buy pints of ice cream and sit and eat at the beanch pondok. But too bad the stores are all closed so we settle for Cornetto instead. Went to the beach and ate in the car. But hor, i dun find it too enjoyable anymore.. cos I'm too scared =s in de end, so gome early lor..hahahss ...

Hrm, i still keep on cravin for tom yam steamboat =((

Rebond my hair, wee hees, was so happy can got my hair rebonded =D

Was pretty pissed actually, cos i had spent like a zillion hrs in the saloon!!! Was there since 12pm nia, and left at 7 30pm, can you actually believe it =s That's about.. 1, 2, 3.......SEVEN hrs in there!!! Wua lua, i was so impatient, everytime Ah Ngo put on the shiseido cream on my hair i just keep on standin up, hahas.. all the saloon girls see me also laugh arh everytime my eyes meet theirs...

Oh well, no regrets tho, cos nw i got nice long hair, wee hees!!! =))

Yawns! I'mjust so dead BEAT !!!! =D

Ok, I'm happy aites, Very very happy can =)

Yesterday : Was at work of course, But yesterday's work was pretty easy! Nothing to do at all, and was alone in the office, and get to off work early @ 4pm. hahas! Went home, took a bath and go to nina's openhouse early, stay there for quite awhile nia, chatted and catch up, and of course, ate alot of malay foods! All hot unfortunately, that'y why my damn cough wad back! =(

Then, ard 8:30pm, left and had tea with ah qiang, ah yung, ah tak, and brena le..then go long kai b'cos we were supposed to visit amy and emma and we're waitin for them cos their mom brought them out!! Waited so long nia..and officially stepped into their home at only 10 15pm!! =s well, it's alryt, went into da kitchen and talk to her mommy awhile, and then go to the living room join my peeps =P

It's so nice to get to see amy le, we have'nt meet for like, so long=s jus gabbed awhile, bt could'nt get to our usual convo's cuz we dun have any privacies =(( we were hopin we can meet up tomorrow and catch up * prayin hard *

When wanna get home dat tym, when we walked out of the door, there comes benny, marcus, adrain, reggie and makong.. and AGAIN talked and have a few laughs before goin home.. hahass, went str8 to bed after that, was dead tired arh -_-" and lookin forward to today of course =))

Today : Worked, the atmosphere at work aint too gd today tho =s then went out meet dear at 12pm..was feeling so happy le, after two weeks we finally can meet..hehehe =D

Hrm, talked and play ard with dear nia, den i got dear mad le =(( but I'm actually happy that he's unhappy with it, wee hees =D That shows he still really.. ahem.. kekeke..

Went to Riveria hotel and have our lunch, and went back to the office liao, wee hees, spend all da tym 2gtr at rooftop nia, but hor, me and dear so long, i never slap him before, and i accidentally DID today!! hahaas!!! cos he say something i never hear a guy say to me before, hahas, i laugh and slapped his face =s za dao.. luckily din hit vry hard nia.. hahaha!! lol ~ and most of all, i never thought even the most little-est details of me he will also notice, so it makes me vry happy =D even if its.... -_-" anywaes, sorry o dear =s

Went home, took a bath and right here bloggin =D only 7 30pm and i'm dead beat, wee hees.

Whole's yesterday post deleted, don't ask me WHY i delete it, oh well..

Was really slacking at work, there's nothing to do for the whole week anywaes, just sit der and bangang, hahass.. and today was alone to work too.. No one gonna come to the office today, not even my two lovely boss.. u say good o nt leh, hahahs. .

These days at work is really boring, boring, and BORING..

got nothing to do these days leh, felt like going home early=s

craving for my blueberry cheesecake leh =((

Day was upsetting agn, dunno why..

Since woke up already liddat..

Really tired of everythin..

I thought i was having an ok day, but who knows how my day ends..

Woke up at 12pm, pretty late, get ready and went with my fam to my old neighbour's hse, visitin my childhood friends since kindergarden..was nice...da oldest fren, titi, was atually engaged already !!!wuaa.. she's js abt 2 years older then me leh..of course, she got intro her fiancee to me lor..hahahas..seems like a nice guy tho..

Came back ard 4pm bah, den go out agn, meet mandy and mike and makong..i thought we could catch up, tellin stories and all.. but who knows.. stories huh..ryt nw..I'm feeling so limp..totally no more strength.. I'm so mch in love with my boy, and i got said dat i'm with him for his money....cn u believe it..

And a so-called friend refuse to tel me the rest..well, it does'nt matter anywae..

Really felt so low..so limp.. like there's really no more care for me in the world.. that's really how i felt nw..

Dunno Why..

For one week plus now..

I keep havin a very strong urge..

To eat BLUEBERRY CHEESE CAKE

and drink ORANGE JUICE..

But till now, i still can't get it

=((

Boring day....=(( vry upsetting nia.. but now alot better..

Had a chat with yun, she helped me put things into prespectives, help me sort out my messy heart and clear my doubt, she's always succesful with me, this i can say for sure =)) and Yes, another time again, she suceeded lettin me see the prespectives, seeing things from another angle instead of something that's bluntly said in my face.. Nw i am more confident and stable.. all thanks to her..

Woots, guess what?Today sumone told me something.. " Your're my gurfren best fren, so you are my best fren too" Wuaaaoo, i thought this kinda guys EXTINCTS liao tim, but today, he proved that this sorta guys still EXISTS!!! lol~ guess who issit? Yusri ofcourse, Amy's hubby..Amy is sure lucky and i'm really happy for her * smilin wistfully * even their emails also same nw.. Amy_828 and Yus_828 ...wua lann.. hahahss..

Wuaa, Max gonna published a novel soon!! the multi-skilled in sociology, business, chemistry, biology, and lot more which i can't remember anymore, the max which foreign companies are fightin for him and was offered TEN MILLION a month job, the max i known since F3 and since then he always help me with his sooooo fabulous advcises max, gonna published his first novel soon, i get to c his artwork first-handedly a few days ago, so kambang dat he shared it with me..wee hees !!Saw alot of the artwork for his novel, the who and who characters and what the characters do n so on, i was stupid enuf to ask him " eh, the anime seem vry nice hor, i wan watch oso, wat name ah, i go buy at shop" wua lan..si beh paiseh until he told me that's his original artwork..mi god.... mentionin dis of course for a reason. Yours truly ME, gonna get his original novel first handedly when it's published, autographed too..hahass.. Nose also wanna go high high liao. Tho so multi skilled, he dun really live a xing fu life..as his beloved wife had passed away frm cancer this year..vry sad..

Wua lua, i ahieved something today!!!! Played solitaire for weeks ah, i could'nt complete it, today, for the 1st tym, i completed it!!! without any help too!! Learn and play by myself..haha, for you people mayb its nothing, but for me it's an achievement, I'm surely not someone who is so patient in learnin something, I cnt do it, i give up..wee hees..

Wuaa !!!!!!!!!! my dear bessie lil bro got GIRLFREN liao worh!! Hais, see him from young till now, guess he really grow up liao, first his voice changes and is taller then me and den keep on lin c me dat he taller, the he claims HE'S A MANN to me, now got gf liao tim !!! hahahs, when heard laugh till i can't breathe.. hahaha!

Hais, sang xing ah, i beg so long, tellin dad i wanna buy a beautiful toy dog...he dun wan buy for me..till now..i vry sien muk le..wheneva i go my boss hse got THREE beautiful toy dog i cn play with, i wan my own toy dog which i cn play n touch avday =((

Hrm..tired ah ..but there is something i must do tonight, if not will really cannot sleep.. outta here..woots =X

Just baq from dinner with parents not long ago, having steamboat at ayamku restaurent..wee hees, the foods is nicee !!!!

But den i suspect, my sickness gonna be from bad to worrseee =(( pity me..but the belacan was damn nice!!!well..even if my sickness got worse or my heart got hole due to coughin..noone's gonna care anywae, especially him..Buurrpps*

Was chattin wif moi dear bessie right nw, had a pretty funny convo, lol~ our party had really excite us, we simply keep talkin abt how we wan how and how and howww...wee heees..

My sickness is killing me!!got a tons new songs, esp my dearrrrrr corrinne may songs, dying to sing with it.. wee hees, bt my itchy troat dun allow me to =((

Let's see...

Hrm, on second thought, mayb i should'nt paste d convo here, talkd about a few paiseh stuff i wish my dear would do for me..hahahas..lol~

I really dunno how long i can stand it anymore.. 3 days in a row i got harrased..get this.. HARRASED..whether its I'm at home or work..upsettin me emotionally and physically.. please god..help me thru this without losing it.. *praying hard *

Really felt farked up to the max right now!!

From what i see, i thought friendship is more IMPORTANT..especially friendship which have been there for years, but hell no, i realise what my elder's (elderly friends) told me last tym is RIGHT..When there is MONEY concern, Friendship won't be there..Nt mentionin any details of what happen...let's just say ..

When money is concerned, friendship is just a word!

Got my first pay today, in my first 17 years, dat's the only thing i cn smile ABIT for nw.. later gonna treat my fam to dinner.. Think so me wanna open another bloggie agn ..cnt stand it if i dun vent out my anger..

Another thingie which made me smile abit wider?? i got my Corrinne may album!yeah ! love her songs to the maxxx!

Another thingie which made my smile another inch wider? the Bday party me n yun had been discussin for months gonna come true..its gonna be OUR BDAY PARTY.. gonna do it on chinese new year..weets...al my vip's will of course..be INVITED..and of course, my dear must be der too, lol~

You Know What Day Is Today? I Just Know It's Not My Day..

Last nyt went to my lau pan niang bday party at Fratini, she booked the whole place down le..haiss, rich people andang diff horhs, well, the foods was ahem...DELICIOUS!!!! I ate so much diff kinda dishes at one tym, but was pretty boring for me, cos it's all thier family.. kinda left out nia..so gone early..it's ok..the delicious foods had occupied my smile for quite awhile =))

Saw my qoute up there?meaningful aiites?copied from Sean.Right enough, It's surely not my day, mornin mommy nagged me up and down about my sickness worsening, and was pretty slow at work, like snail arh...and when i wanna eat my lunch in da office? Two customers came..Tmd..very hungry liao, fork also in hand, gab so mch agn cause me need to eat my lunch at 12 30pm!!If i'm eatin out, i can go already..but too bad...someone lan c see me..so here i am ..stuck in da office..

Had a nice gab with me dear bessie just now..she asked me if i wan us (me and her ) to vacation in Hong Kong next yr, for another 18th memory.. =)) ofcos i say i want la, we even got to the point discussin the prices and so on ..ahah.. hopefully, we will be able to go..we had been wantin to go vacation 2gtr for like... YEARS.. =s

I Wan Korin May album!!!!!her songs are like..so so so damn nice..i want it, i want it, i want it!!!!!!!!!!Whatever it takes, i will make it be in my hands..

And to Mandy, it's not a prob to help someone grant a happy 18th bday wish does it?=P And I'm happy i could grant it for you..tho the cake is abit ...too tiny?Any gur would wants her wish to come true, me also no difference..But then..No one noe my wish! hahahass.. oh well ..u happy can liao..anywaes, d cake vry nice hor, damn damn damn nice tim!!wanna have it agn le..duno stil got o nt.. =P what's the cake name by the way.....?

Buut Buut.. outta here..

btw....

Happy bday Isabella!!!=))

Just back from lunch with dear,eatin chicken rice..still have sm time..so thought i'll blogged in here..wee hees,dear gave me another suprised prez today leh,the fullhouse series which i always wanted..and last sat he gave me an vincci watch ..hehe..these 2days also smile till teeth also wanna fall out liao =D xin is very very happy =)

But hor,till now still sick le..ytd is the WORST..cuz got fever n so on.. slept till 4pm..n do my HW the boss gave me..and just 5 min ago ..he sed i did my HW gd. .no mistakes.. n did it perfectly..=D u say gd o nt leh ..hehes..

Just back from lunch with dear,eatin chicken rice..still have sm time..so thought i'll blogged in here..wee hees,dear gave me another suprised prez today leh,the fullhouse series which i always wanted..and last sat he gave me an vincci watch ..hehe..these 2days also smile till teeth also wanna fall out liao =D xin is very very happy =)

But hor,till now still sick le..ytd is the WORST..cuz got fever n so on.. slept till 4pm..n do my HW the boss gave me..and just 5 min ago ..he sed i did my HW gd. .no mistakes.. n did it perfectly..=D u say gd o nt leh ..hehes..

Wua la..gonna be a dead dog soon arh,sick saince yesterday morning dunno why today got a worser turn..Was coughin non-stop and i could'nt eat or drink anything due to my bad sorethroat..add on to my stomach cramps and shivering..hais.. BAD ARHHH.......

Wua..nw only i realised i have'nt been bloggin here for one week plus!!!!=s i just thought i din blogged for like...3 days?lol~

Nothing much happen anywaes,have been workin for one week plus now and still can hang on it...no complaints for the moment =P

Yesterday a sex maniac bastard called me..turned out he's my friend's EX bf!!!oh geess..i never see guy as crazy sex till like this....hate guys who take girls for advantages,whether they're rich girls or sexy body girls..a guy just LOOKIN at a girl is consider a sin..wuaa..so serious..ahahahas..

Anywaes...the bastard's no. 8677660 so girls out there...dun be one of his stupid EX's and fall into his stupid sweet smelling nest!!!!~~

From that evening onwards,i got nothing on my mind and there's no doubt anymore..Now i finally know my much and how deep my boy's love for me is..

People you out there,can you PLEASE stop pressurising about my decision.I've longed CHANGED. I no longer confide in people about my problems or anything anymore.So dun Fcukin give me more pressure than i already have.You're not me,you will never know.The only someone who i can fully at ease with is yun..not family..no one..If it's aint for her,now i would be suffocated already.She let me go for my OWN DIRECTION.She tells me there's NOTHING wrong in my decision..Because jmy FUTURE and HAPPINESS is at stake.. unlike some so-called friends i should mention,who actually say i'm STUPID aand WRONG.. get lost.

Felt much calmer nw after talkin with dear..bawled my eyes out and dearr keep on reassurin and comfortin me..dear,sorry i overreact just nw..i really cannot stand hearin all of these..but i also know that other then scho0l,all ur time is fully devoted to me and nothing else other then workin for our small vacation..promised dear i would go sleep nw..muakss..love dear mch ...

Haiss..a boring day sia..dearr gimme a call early early mornin..talked and went baq to bed,but cannot sleep baq tho,dunno why..was suddenly motivated today and changed my blog!!!nice or not?!?!=P it's made from the korea drama full house,i wanna watch it!!!but no one have ..=(

Dad bought laO su fen for mie breakfash slash lunch from alan khew's uncle store,the laO su fen there really the besT!!hahass..right after eatin..Dad and mom say they wanna go kb and see furniture,mie also followed nia,nothing to do at home,while boii boii just stay at hOme stickin his face to this lovely pc =P

On the way to kb,dad suddenly ask me hor.."xin xin,jefri bolkiah technical sch there got anything would you like to study o nt?those not engineering one?" suprised leh,but told him no..and so far this whole year my interest had only been hotel management and learnin abt beautician or hair or similiar stuff to this..then dad suddenly ask "brunei got hotel management give you study o not?"wuaa..now i kno he really jien qi wan me to continue pursue my studies..-_-" but i've made up mymind liao,even if i cont study..it must be something i'm interested in..no more school life which i don't like..ahahsss..

Went to shop see see talk talk with mie parents,then horde dad over to mum's bakery and bought a few of the chicken floss breads which i'm totally in love with!!Complained that one piece of bread can buy one whole roll of plain bread agn..-_-"

Homed,read storybk and eatin my lovely breads..after two hours,hungry agn leh!!luckily mommy got cook homeMade mee for everybody,ate it but felt hungry AGAIN...really shitty ah..dunno what's wrong with my bowel today,cooked instant poridge..damn nice!!=))

Just now hor,dad came into my room agn to talk to me,i thought he wanna ask me about studies agn,but no...his expression was so serious,i thought what agn...who knows.. "xin xin ah,2mr you go with me to grandma hse okay?gu gu wanna see you" lol !!! so i just say ok lor.. hahass...look like i got a plan for tomorrow!!i'm soOoO so totally lookin for any chance or anythin to do just to keep my troubles and worries about my studies and school..

Morning - woke up early,dressed and mommy send me to a company to give my CV..bAq to to take a nap,and went with mom to seria again to see mandy awhile..her shop is..one word.. BORED -_-"

Noon -Meet up with dear..spend the few precious hours together..

Evening - Homed at 5pm,took a quick shower,hurriedly did my hair..and mom send me off to YY..was kinda stupid,search for my friends could'nt find them,in d end,realised that they're at the other wing whih i never do before,all smss go neh,about 30+ peoples?!?!woots..many till need to connect about 5-6 tables..wuaa..ehehs..all my peeps have to wait for the sungkai prayer before they can eat..i noe i noe..i should respect..bt..im just SO HUNGRY!!!!=(( but then,they dun mind anywaes..nazri keep ask me to eat first eat first..lolz=P jun ryan,the only NOt smss was there too..and he helped us take loadsa pics..eat about 2 or 3 courses nia me..cn imagine hw hungry i am liao..

Night - around 8pm,makong msged me tellin me he's goin to amy and emma's hse and asked me if i would like to go..since finish eatin and there's nothing to do anywaes..so go lor..he came pick me n we go amy hse..was there till 9 45pm..cnt tahan anymore..too tired nehh..so go home..and here am i =))

wanna take a shower and dropped to bed..ZzZzz..

wOoTs..pan wei buo's bu de bu ai is darn nice..weehees=) just homed from goin buffet dinner with moi family..the foods today are nice!!darn darn nice..this sat got another chance to eat agn..the smss gathering..wOoTs!~

Hais,till 2day have'nt start studyin nia..don even understand the break even analysis!!=(( mayb will get julre or isa to teach me on sat..actually..plannin to study this noon larh,but then hor..slept from 1pm till 4 30pm-_-"

bah..dat's it liao bah..nth to blogged this days norh..

One more ting...

happy birthday ah leng leng!!!!<33

C u t E ......

Hell..kaybee and their mega sized mouths..the whole damn town was spreadin all those untrue rumours..No wonder someOne was so pissed,well..now it's my turn!i don't give a damn about what YOU PEOPLE wanna say..i have to admit..me as a kaybee person also si beh pai seh to be one..What..you people had nothing to do but sit around in coffee shops and ruinin people live's issit?people like you i DONT NEED..!!why don't you just stuff about a dozen elephants into your mouth?Because that's the size of YOU ALL mouths!!GET MY POINT??

What the hell i done wrong.. YOU PEOPLE have absolutely nothing to do except sittin around sayin people's untrue stuff..and guess what i gave you when u told me?all i said was.. "kb ppl and their big mouths".. and this BASTARD was sayin " you better becareful how you talk!" then was really pissed to the max and said "if u wanna ask me becareful my mouth then dont talk to me la!i din talk to you anywae YOU are the one botherin me!" wel..see if i care! Fcuk it..you are the one botherin me..talkin to me FIRST while i'm mindin my on business..Wth ?!?!?! watch my mouth?watch yours first!!!

wOots,decided to blogged before goin to sleep,aint feeling too good,din study again..haiss..felt really hopeless about my attendance..=s if really cannot promote..my dear peeps really gotta take few truckload tissues to heal me=(( To make matter worse..i lost my whole darn business file FOUR days ago and i only realised it a day ago-_-" sheesh..really could'nt study without my notes..was lookin all over for it at sch todae..but someone STOLE my file..anyOne whose holdin it...give it baq to me pleasee..i need it..

Day was aiight as usual..ever since puasa school ended at 11 50am..*grins* bt still...felt day was passin each day sloooooowwwwlllllyyyyyyyyy..i just wanna wait till the tym i could meet dear and have a good tym agn..

Went home..sat in front of the tv and pc and slack there whole noon..dunno why hor..was so motivated de..i wanna changed my blogskins and my friendster profile,decorate it b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l-l-y .....but den lehhhhhhhh...espeed like shiat todae arh..totally no use..haiss..when i'm so motivated and rajin the toopid connection just dun wanna work with me...

Hrm...should i give up sch?should'nt ryt..i dunno..haiss..i noe KYRIE will miss me..lolz..yo kyrie..why are u absent todae?u missed my fascinating biz presentation lehh..ahahah..

anywaes..i wonder if... CARA JOSHI gonna read my blog like she read anna's blog..tee hee hee..if got hor..to this CARA JOSHI..prove to me and anna and avone elese ur the TRUE CARA JOSHI and not a FAKE!!!wahhahaaaa!

Mandy left my home a few minutes ago..here i am now..bloggin..supposin to be vry happy today..but something ruins it all.. but let me blogged about yesterday and today anywaes..

YesTerDay.....
was out with dear after sch yesterday..had a happy date yesterday with each other..was supposin to fo to tamu and have our early dinner..but instead..dear bought me to this cozy expensive restaurent at riviera hotel..the foods and atmosphere was vry nice norhs=)) but i think dear was kinda annoyed that i kept on complainin about the price..and i could'nt finished my foods agn..felt vry guilty =s went home..took a bath..watched tv..supposin to start studyin..and then hor..I LOST MY DAMN FILE..!geezz -_- i hoped i can find baq my file..or else really cry =((

ToDay.......
woke up kinda late..ard 1pm..but 8am dear called me up and we talked talked..meet wif my dear fren mandy chong..her uncle came to pick us up..was so suprised!!!knew her so many years le..1st tym her uncle bring us..tee hee..went too suki and had drinks..story story and went to saloon had my haircut and she did her free hair treatment =P after that ..we went to bodyshop ..see ard talk with friends awhile..and get alvin to send us home..well..to my home anywaes..just hangin out talkin and she went home..

Haiss..was kinda annoyed now..not filing any details here..unless i knew it for sure..and that tym..i'll really explode for sure..

just finished up my lunch..decided to come in and blogged early..

skipped school today leh,cos not feeling well..had two days holiday proclaimed by yours truly!!wee hees!!2mr is also another holiday for me,teacher's day leh,lazy to watched my fellow schoolmates dance and so on,so...another day hol for me!=))

tho it's a two day hol for me,i aint feeling too good tho..very very moody =( havin unknown reason stomachachse for days,a big ulser on my lips plus startin to have chest pain and difficulty breathin AND quarrel with dear makes it worse =s

Lasnyt,i was supposed to call him,called over such long times,over two freakin hours then he pick up my call..two hours le..ask any girl,who song?... so was abit unhappy when talkin and i aint feelin well so was'nt upbeat as usual..upon hangin up,told him i aint feeling well..guess wat?he dun even give a damn..any DECENT boyfren would hv been worried and so on,bt my own boy msg REPLY oso dun have..how wud you feel?song?Till 10pm+ txted him agn,replied like nothing wrong,and dat's not all..he actually THREATHEN me that if i still talk wif him like i did lasnyt when he called me 2nyt,he rather don call or just talk for a short while..wua lan...

This tym,really mad till the max!txted him baq and giv him an earful exactly HOW i felt..he said.."im resting now..gdnyt" wua..really heart boils,dunno it upsets my body or what,suddenly i'm just chokin and keep gaspin for breath..mommy rushed into ma room and asked me what's wrong.Told her and she went to find my med..could'nt find it tim,mom called to called up dad frm his meeting and tell him my condition and asked about my med..took 2 capsules..and went to sleep already..

Dun even start talkin about today,everytime i thought it baq,sure felt chest very pain and cannot breathe agn..beta let the topic to rest.......

xU ruO XuaN-haO xIaNg nii

hai mei wang le nii zhe me duO tian mei jian ;
ke shi wO chOng xiang qi nii de shen yin zai wO er bian ;
jing tian xing qing haO ma ;
shi fu bu yu kuai ;
yaO yi jie dOu kan de kai ;
shi jie mei yOu tai huai ;
sui ran bu zai ni sheng bien ;
wO de xin yOu yi tiaO xian ;
lian zhe nii ; qian zhe nii ;

haO xiang nii ;xiang daO yuan yi xiang xing ;
wO jiu bi shang le yan jing nii zai na li ;
bie wang le wo men de yue ding ;
yi zhi dOu zai wo xing li ;
bu guan nii zai na li ;
bu yao wang le yOu duO ai nii ;

bu yaO wang le chi fan bu guan duO mang ;
bu yaO wang le kai che shi hOu yi ding yaO wang qian kan ;
qi shi wO zhen de hen kuai le ;
yOu nii yi zhi shOu hOu ;
yi zhi zuo daO le yii hOu duO wan zhe nii de shou ;
sui ran bu zai ni sheng bian ;
dan wO zai ni xing li mien ;
wO yuan yi den zai nii ;

wo haO xiang nii ; xiang daO bu nen hu xi ;
xiang daO quan sheng mei li qing mei you guan xii ;
nii bie wang ji wo men de yue ding ;
yi zhi dOu zai wO xing li ;
bu guan nii zai na li ;
bu yaO wang le wo yOu duO me ai nii ;
wO ye yi zhi zai zhe li ;
bie wang le wO you duo me de ai nii .

Feeling so suffocated..

skipped noon classes in order to rest..

Chest pain N can't breathe again,

Eatin medicine does'nt have any effect at all =((

Think so gonna lie down and rest Now..

Haiss,my sleep is ruined!!well,not exactly larh,it's just kinda nt suang when i'm tryin to enjoy my last hour of mornin sleep as much as possible before having to wake up and go to sch..but NOOO~~ while i'm sleepin halfway the electric current stops,causin no air con for me=((

But still,sleep till around 6 45am then gan yen wake up ang get ready.Went to school as usual,homed,bathed and mommy drove me outt meet dear=)) times at school seems like it's crawling..........................

Before going to office,dropped by in kk.chan shop to photocopy some business papers required for mon's lesson,teacher so "ba bi" leh,got txtbk still hv to photocopy..waste money oni nehs..

At office,it's about 2 45pm liao lorh,nt wastin any tym of cOurse,spend every minute as much as possible=)) wee hees,there's only us alone in the office,sO can do whatever we want =P

Did something on dear leh,when he went out of the room to see if anyone had come upstais,did something really....seemingly "desperate" at him =D like a desperate wife hungry for hubby's attention..lols~ thinkin about it keep makin me laugh,hahahss!!!=D That had really put a smile On my face=))

We went to tamu and ate there leh,eat so muchie "chi pi ku's" woOts..finally dear allow me to eat leh,hehess...eat so much agn and went home together..wee heess..

Dear called me up after he reached home,we had a small quarrel lor=(( but We're ok agn in the end.=)) I'm really thankful there has'nt been any huge fyts recently..it's just minor rows and parched up almost ryt after that..I'm really thankful for it..

Watched tv after that,came on9 for awhile nw..see hui yi's IM me.. "Oi,xin xin!!!what's wrong?What had happened to you?!!?" wuaa..she seems so zhing zhang,bt too bad she off9 liao,proly had dinner with friends or something..so just drop her an email..i know she would see it ltr anywaes,so no nid msged her..ehehezz.

OkaY,that's it for now,wanna read my dearrrrr fren's email nw,pen off.....^^

Read dear's post makes me go ROFL larh,lols~ wad kinda post is that?HAHAHA...

Hrm,actually..i did angry leh,when i mc you ur mob off..thought what agn,on the way in de car to kb i keep thinkin how i gonna bite ur ass off ler..but when see you,you straight away already tell me..so i thought..suan liao lor=P

Meet dear today ler,finally can see him liao..hehehes,day was good,weather cold enuf=D and lunch at kfc..saw kok vei and siao xiang oso leh,wOots....so en ai=))

Ard 5pm,left dear and wait mommy come and she brought me to milimewah bought a few stuffs,so just shopped ard lookin at clothes nia,i never noe hor,a place like milimewah gt cute clothes at $5.90-_-" it's the same shirt which i used to wan in another shop,except the cartoon is diff,for the price of $25..my gawd arh..those who wanna have cute clothes wif bargains can search ard the $5.90 ladies section bin..ahahss..

Reached home,took a bath,watced tv and dear called me up awhile..=)) he must be studyin nw..gd boy..hehehss..

till here for 2nyt..stomach's really givin me alot of pains =((

Ok..I'm baQ to blogged!!have'nt been bloggin since the last few days,nothin much happens to blogged about anywaes and was pretty busy watchin movies!!=D computer and online simply not my priority right now..

Changed my layout,my blog song.....like it?No?get out!!!=D jus kiddin..wee heees,jus simply feelin vry sian with the old blogskin,so changed this one..actually wanna use the "shooting stars" one,the designs are nice,bt somehow,the structure is kinda off..so used this instead..cute?i think vry cute lerhs,tho i admit i'm nt someone who knows how to appreciate art(said so by safrina when she ask my opinions on devianarts=s) but i do love lil kids pictures alot..jus PICTURES..=D

Okays,did'nt do anything much these few days,it's just always school,homed,bath,find something to eat,tv,dinner + tv,on the fone,tv agn and goes to sleep=D that's how my life have been these three days.Not complainin it cause i love it!!!hahass..

And also,these three days did'nt have any quarrels with dear,and also felt abit more calm than i expected,sometimes still vry huan zhang,but it got tamed=))

LET ME TELL YOU...........
I DO NOT work as an part time entertainer.For these people who DO NOT treat me like a fren,den only looks for me when you are BORED or WHEN YOUR "BUDDY" LEFT YOU, you are NOTHING but an ASS..don't expect i'll give you face... why should i be your entertainer?have you reated me like a fren before?!?! if you're my friend,no prob,i'll entertain you,but people like you..get lost..get it?

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE....!

Ok..poppin outta here,lazy blogged so mch =D my tv's more important..ahahsss!!

P/s-->kyrie,sowwie i stole ur lunch ytd,angry ahh?=D

Was pretty tired,so just dropped a small blog ryt nw=))

Day was pretty mch same nehxx,just spend the daY with dear and We went to kfc eat..like..AGAIN=p

But nw this two days have ended,have ta wait till next fri before i can see him agn,i just hope my heart will remain only "calmness" till the day we meet =((

Btw,thanks ALOT to kyrie leh,always helpin me this and that,always tried his best to let me have all the stuffs that i wanted from other people's blogs..tQ vry mch yeahs=D See ya in sch on mon..=D

Day was aiight..din sleep mUch thO,could'nt sleep..slept abt 3am den woke up ard 6 30am agn,vry unrested norhx,datym dad went to toilet and droppey by in my bedroom see me sleep=s asked me.."xin xin,mornin lor,stil cannot sleep?" that tym i really thought i dun sleep till mornin,was super blur so answered him "yealorh,cnot sleep ohh.." hahasss..

wOke up at 9 30am agn,get ready,watched abit of tv,decide which new cloth i wanna wear,since i bought about..six clothes?=D Go out with dad and meet up dear..We had a small fight leh,in de beginnin..bt patched uP and day was smooth after that,till before i had to go home had a row agn-_-"

Went to kfc and eat leh,so many foods,eat so mch till I'm really really full!wee heess,dunno what's wrong with me this days,so totally addicted to kfC and jolibees=s But then,think sO we should have gone somewher eat lorh,cos dear got a big leak in front of his mouth,scare ltr bleed and was even more pain after eatin fried foods nia,asked him dun eat the chicken "pi" and chili sauce dun wan listen to me agn..=((

Went baQ to the office,rested awhile and fell asleep with each other for awhile..lol~ Before go home had another quarrel agn leh,so beh song that i pinch and kick him but all he did is hug me tytly in his arms =D Was so touched and happy he did that..wee heess..

Despite we had quarrels,i stil felt vry happy that i could finally see him today,at least,my heart calms down alot more nw..=)

tomorrow gonna meet up dear agn,gonna watch abit of tv,have a well rest and meet up dear 2mr..lookin forward to it=))

hab you eva try controllin ur tears for so many daes..
tryin your best not to cry..
do you know how it feels?

hab u eva try acting so happy when u're out..
where deep down u're feeling vry miserable?
do you know how it feels?

hab u eva try findin ways n means to find wat the person you lurve is thinkin
yet when he's reply ish so "warm"
do you know how it feels?

hab u eva try talkin on da fone wit someone else..
and the person is actually tellin you all dos words you wana say to someone else?do you know how it feels?

hab you eva try crying out loud in ur pillow..
hoping dat all the pains will go..
do you know how it feels?

izzit right or wrong to be serious about someone..
its really hurtin me so mch so mch..
i wish somehow someone would take me out of tish world..
i hate being over here...

why does the whole world know dat i'm upset..
and not YOU
why those showin care n corcern...
ish not YOU..

wuaaa,exactly hw im feeling!!i post this up in my other blog months ago,and when i reread it baq,then i saw all of these..my gawd-_-"

Grace is 75% happy!!!
I'm really tired already so i'll jus wing it aiight..

Okay,i'm suprised,thought i'm just gonna slack at home todae,bt dad woke me up and asked me if i would like to go miri today=D weetss..so happy,so get ready quick and we're on our way liaOhs..

Stopped by Sing Ya Guin food centre before headin to parkson..shopped ard there,bought a few stuff and then we went to the imperial,shopped some more..tried on many clothes leh,till my hair oso messy like hell liaOs,hahass..Also bOught some Cd's and Dvd's all paid by dad ofcourse =D

before headin to boulevard,we ate at Kfc leh,so nice de chicken,wanna eat fried chicken for quite awhile liao lehh,hehess...

By the time we're at Boulevard,My feet is aching So So mch that i give up shoppin already..jus sit on da bench waitin for my bro and mommy as they went into cd and book shops..

Companied dad went to supermarket and choose my mooncake,and while i'm walkin over it,der's this guy who was choppin furiously with a wood in de supermarket..weird ma..so stared at him lah..he noticed it and asked me.."xiaO jiE,Ni XianG yaO maI Zhe Ba DaO ma?" worst pick up line eva!lol~ but my mom is laffin hysterically tho-_-"

Wanna buy dear a pressie actually..some were outta stock,some nt ngam,too sissy to be precise,i've given him enough girlish pressies liaO,so dun wanna do this agn..hahass..And saw sOme nice shirts that i thought i could buy for him,bt impossible..cuz my dad is shoppin ryt beside me the whole day!!!=( So in de end din get anything for him..sowwie oh dearr..

ReachEd home about 8 45pm,msged with dear awhile,and makong dropped by my home to take his thing that he asked me help him buy..luckily my dad nO say anything at all..Wee hee=D

Haiss,really si beh beh song arh,i'm supposed to call yun while i'm at miri..but then i 4got!!!!=( chuO guO a chance to talk with her..boosss..anywaess..really gotta bath now..feeling vry stinky lehh=S

Day was aiight,bt nt really happy,just abt 40% happy=s

Woke up ard 10am todae,doin absolutely nth just playin dynomite in my comp and had kolo mee which dad tapau for me for breakfast..

Showered and go out with dad in the afternoon.There isnt about anything to look forward to anymore,my life had become ruined from the day HE dun treat me like his gur anymore..Van taught me to accept some facts about our own boyfriends,and to live on not lookin baQ agn,was tryin and learnin to do dat=D

Anywaes,company dad go supasaVe bought groceries,lucky he dun ask me to push trolley or take the basket..I HATE THAT!!!!Bought alot of junkies for myself=D good thingie about goin out with dad?he pays for it=)) Dad bought me a kebab too,which i ate in the car on the way to seria..*weets* really miss kebabs leh,so darn long no eat that liao!

Dad was supposed to go to grandma's hse bt dropped me to shop since i dun wanna go there..but before that,i had to help dad buy hallocard and zippi card for my grandma's ahmah..haiss..walked the whole plaza building arh,dun have $5 zippi card..and dunno why the hell dad wans a $5 zippi and $5hallocard..toOpid=s

Went to shop after that and go take my pweecIous 6680 frm the display and use=)) felt so happy usin that mob,dunno why..Went to soi heng and had barley drinks and a bowl of "sui jiaO" to share while we catched up with each other..

Before goin baQ to the shop,went to cd shops and bought few vCd's agn,well..mandy bought it anywaes while i'm just browsin..weets..i really wanna buy those korea dramas leh!!my heart already itchy for the dramass.. *god,pls let alot of money dropped frm the sky=P * super lame ..hahass..

Went baQ to the shop and watched "amityville horror" ..a horror movie,i'm nt sure if this is the exact title,bt i guess u wud know what i meant ryt=)) oh man..the movie is so...HORRIBLE!!!=(( it's excitin alryt,bt way too damm scary!!!It's so scary that we hugged each other..worse,we shrieked about two tyms in front of the customers and they were laughin and smilin at us!!haiss..si beh paiseh..=D

Dad came ard 8pm and pick me uP after his hours of being at grandma hse,dunno got what to do there leh..so long..hahass..and here i am!!!bloggin!!!

Dunno gonna do what tomorow leh,haiss..........................................

oooohzz..btw..

HAPPY BDAY IMASS!!!!

headache nia,dunno sleep too mch or wat..woke up ard2pm plus nehxx..was super tired=s but nw still tired,hopefully can sleep early 2nyt=))

due to my overslept and no msg no car go lumut imas's bday hse..stayed at home and slacked whole day..haiss,shOuld have go out nia..felt so stressed and moody =((

Got the song i wanted!!!yeapiii!was listenin to it whole day lehss..and got crazy enuf to get the lyrics!!!=D here it is..

Wo dao le zhe ge shi hou hai shi yi yang

Ye li de ji mo rong yi dao ren bei shang

Wo bu gan xiang de tai duo,

yin wei wo yi ge ren

Ying mian re lai de yue gang la xiang shen ying

Mai wu mu di de zou zai leng leng de jie

Wo mei you ni de xiao xi,

yin wei wo zai xiang ni

Chorus:

Ai wo bie zou, ru guo ni shuo, ni bu ai wo

Bu yao ting jian ni zhen de shuo shu kou

Zai gei wo yi dian wen rou

was talkin wif yun yun ryt nw,debating abt who is jay chow girlfren and why this why that..so lame..lolness to da max!=P

was super tired leh nw=s din sleep whole nyt..so kinda heahache nw and icould barely even open my eyes leh=s was talkin on the fone with someone HEATEDLY till veinds also boil leh=( and then just played comp games from dawn till 10am,get ready and go out meet mandy chong=))

Mandy's having a few probs lasnyt,and needed someOne to company her,so went out and pei her lorh=)) she's really goin thru a rough time,can really understand her feelings nw,cuz i'm always having this same prob on and off eva since me with dearr..so know the feeling whn someOne is really really in pain and was nearly breakin,bt i felt vry bad as a friend sia,cuz i cnt hv mch advice to gv her,asm myself having this prob since last yr also never have ans,bt i wil always be by her side when she needed me..that's what best friends are for..ryt?=))

spend the whole mornin with her and with a new gur who came for work 1st time today..named zeti.=)) the guy(forgotten his name) was fired due to his lack of "responsibility" at shop "laff loud loud" and zeti replaced him instead.was a vry friendly and kai lang gur,and vry CONSIDERATE too!!=)) unlike us..hahass.dat tym when we're all sittin down execpt shwu wen and zeti mar,so i said to her "zeti arh,sit down with us larh,dun stand der" and she point at wen and say"she's abt to eat her lunch,hw can she stand up eat her lunch?"wuaa..so pandai wei other ppl zao Xiang,if any of us,sit down ord lorh,hahass!!=P

One very gd advantage of having friends workin at mobile shopsor you youself workin there,cn curi curi take the mobs there to use!!hahass!I go take the Nokia6680 and use leh,use till i sonngg!!!was seriously fallin in love with dat fone!tho it's NOKIA..used it the whole day,nt vry get used to it so abit lut lut abt d programs and keep sendin wrong msgs to the wrong ppl.bt LOVEEEEEEE that fone leh!!carry it ard me like a baby the whole day..when walkin also arry it show off here and there=P who wanna buy me that fone?hahass!!

Had lunCh with mandy at soi heng,ordered 2 bowls of "sui jiaO" and 1 bowl of kolo mee to share.the sui jiaO soup vry nice worh,and drank mandy's barley..hahass.sweet sweet..very niCe to drink leh,when go seria agn must drink agn=D after eating and payin up went to plaza walked ard,bought some vd's.."the 4oyr old virgin" and "house of wax" these 2 movies hab been in my list for quite awhile nw!!=))

Went baQ to the shop and then me and Anna company shwu wen go banked in the company's money while mandy watched the shop.but before we go,we took few pics at da shop!!gt it developed ord in ma home!=) I look kinda ugly leh..haiss-.- after went to da bank,went to yy develop pics and dump into my god bro..kenny!!hahas!lukily he rmb me leh..wave wave at me from the 3rd floor plaza=))

Watched "the 40yr old virgin" after all errands are runned.it's damm hilarious!!!all five of us girls were laughin so darn loud!=D den hor,ah baO came and "visited"..wonderin what's all the commotion abt..i wonder if we're really THAT loud tho,coz he said he could hear our laughter all the way from his shop!!!!=s

Day was actually ok..till i go home.Started thinkin all the probs agn..felt really pain when thinkin of it..

Actually should be having gatherin dinner for ivan's bday nw leh instead of bloggin ryt here=s bt den felt vry tired already and wanna wait for dear to call me,so dun wanna go out anymore..bt then whn dear called,we quarrelled agn,made me so sad nia..sUm stuff nt to mentioned here..bt felt really hurt by some words he said to me..was even more upset when dear accused me of not wearin his ring.i did nt purposely dun wear the two beautiful rings he gave,bt because i love the ring too mch,i don wan to get it dirty and ruined marh,so i took it off when i'm washin my face on sat before i went out meet him..bt after washin my face left the toilet 4gettin 2wear the rings baQ and he thought some other way when it's all an misunderstandin..=((

haiss..really sad nw..wanna sleep early later..nw was talkin with my fung fung bro=P

Wan the song AI Wo Bie ZoU bY jay Chow,simply meaningful ans suits my mood today,tee hees.anyOne got that song Can send me?!?!

was ultra bored in mornin today leh,woke up earlier then usual..actually supposed go out meet mandy at shop leh,but last minute canceled due to her unwell feeling so got sick leave..nw just sittin in front of the comp waitin time to pass nehxx..

slept early lasnyt,was really tired,but then keep on wakin up..dunno why.think so i've woke up like..5-6 tyms?haiss..and got headache agn=s

woke up eat mommy's tapau laO shu Fun,then hor,dunno eat wrong o what..till now i got tummyache whole day..add on to my headache = not feeling well at all =s

this taken last week leh...at shop =P

this taken last sat in makong welcome baq dinner worh=P

slack the whole noon,quarreled with mommy agn..she said alot of mean and hurtful things to me le..so mad i talk baq like wat..intendin to do as she says me..made her eat the hurtful words she say to her own daughther..hmpff..=<

nyt is alot more beta.took my mind of thingies..dunno for what hell..i bath 2 tyms within one hr=P took my sweet tym bathin and gettin ready too.makong came to pick me then pick xae li..woots.lil girl who used to run ard in pigtails and playin with me in tuiton nw grow up liao leh=D so ker ai liaO..hahasss..

den along with marcus and willy went to zuki cafe eat le.Also dunno what for wanna go so far eat=s then we go amy hse nia..miss my dar dar so so mch!!=P have'nt seen her for like...SO MANY MONTHS!!she stil look the same tho..ahahass..me,benny,makong,emma,amy jus sit there talkin nia..makong did sum catchin up's with da girls.. =))

ard 9 45pm hor,choi choi,ivan,willy all came also to visit amy and emma worhhxx..choi tried to persuade three of ur girls out..so in the end,go moi nam awhile lorhss,saw tiff and vicky le..hehess..have'nt seen tiff so long liaOh arhhss..

we all just ordered drinks nehxx..and sit der..see makong eat cheesecake made me VERY jealous,i wanna eat too ma!!!!bt no one treat me=(( in da end..jus watch him savour the delicious cake=((

willy is doin a video on his cam nia,we all keep evade here and there..den hor,when i'm nt realising,ivan took a pic of me in monkey image..look vry lui siaa..wanna die le..so u-g-l-y ..ehehe...

then go home lorhh..actually wanna go to sleep liao de..who knows,sumone forwarded me a few obsense msgs,she sed d msg cum frm under my name worhh..cuz under my name gt a few ppl no. marr..mommy...dear etc..so vry mad sia.. got this kinda msgs..made me whole nyt tossin oni. .

another also cuz mie vry fan le..vry vry fan..thinkin of it mades me go mailto:^*&%$@!&*# actually wanna blogged abt it in other blog leh,bt was deleted so cnot blogged liao..nvm larh..blogged for what?rmb so mch things make me pain oni sia..beta dun reread agn =)

btw o..

HAPPY BDAY TO HUI YI!!!!!!!<333 MuAcKkKksss!

actually was missin dear alot nehxx,bt since he got new life new change in life he pretends i don't exists anymore..pretend me nt there le..vry hurtful one you know?to be treated this way by the one you love?bt missin dear vry mh le..do you miss me o nt ler..dearr..

hrm,was pretty sleepy ryt nw,spend de whole day with my dearr,woke up ard 8 30am and 9am already fly out meet dear..hahass.nvm larhss,spend sum quality tym marhs ryt=))

went out to have lunch at err..smwher smwher,a food place near da office,dun rmb the name tho..kim something..had pork chop rice and dear had "sao rou" rice,i think..went baq to de office and spend quality tym der just da two of us=P

haiss,sang xing arh!!got alot of those msgs frm friend..de one ler,ask u type " zapp reg " and said you may save cr blar blar blar,in de end hor,i lkost about $4 cr..really kns to the maX!!!so beh song,face also become so black liao,dear just ask me went to town and he bought a new recharge for me *weeets* so sweet of him nehhxx=D muaks muaks <33 you.. then company him buy nokia battery for his mom's mob.

dropped by the bkstore,and dear bought ice capucino,today's ice capucino kinda nice lehx,vry sweet,bt i got tummy ache ltr =s saw peh shan and lih fui nehx!!so long tym no see them liaohss,lih fui had straighthen her hair worhss,lookin quite nice leh=))

sept female mag's is out!!!!!gonna ham my dad buy for me soon..weeess..anywaes,after buyin the capucino,we went to the stalls and bought satays and went baq to the office and eat it there..kekess.bt hor..2day's beef satay nt as nice as last tym de..dunno why..

then ard 5pm,we went home 2gtr..before that,dear bought me sum chi pi ku!!hahahass!!my beloved chi pi ku arhh!!loving chi pi ku more then i love my dear=P HAHAHASS!!

hrm...2mr gonna go out meet my dearrrrrr fweeennn mannnnndddyyyy chooooonnngggg ..cuz she's workin alone nia,ask me company so thought of goin lorh..hahahss..gonna laff her loud loud =P

Playin with my bro's ps the whole day,intendin nt to remember those hurtful things dearr said to me..like i'm nth,add on to his blog too!it's so obviously he resented me so mch,tmd..

really si beh tu lan whole day,till to da point of screamin my whole damm frustrations and pains in my other blog,bt i'm gonna del the bloggie soon,who knows who accidentally stumbled across it,really embrassing to vent out in innermost feelings,lyk..DoHHhhhh !

so frustrated till the point i wanna chopped of my hair agn!i simply don't know why i felt like having the NEED to chopped of my hair when i'm nt feeling good,luckily my dear bessie talked me outta it..if nt..vry syng,grow so long ord yet i chopped it off.. booohz..

wad talkin to my fung fung..hahass,gave him a new nickname liaohz,told him that i dreamt i went to SPA with him,along wif ah wei,hell knows how i got that dream,and he practically gagged!!Haiss,since i'm havin my hols nw,he asked me go overnyt at his home worhs,and ah wei will bring me baq,nt a bad option actually..since i got lyk NTH TO DO at home,and my dear's left me,so i thought,why not?tee hee...bt gonna see my plannin first..if o,den go,since i already have the green light frm dad so it aint a problem!!!

03-makong is baq in brunei!!!have'nt seen him for like..so so so many months.went to two parties actually..firstly,stella's bitrthday with the group..stella,me,jason,louey,khew,best of all?stella is richard's love,and he treated the whole party for stella's bday..aint it sweet?it reminds me of the party louey gave his gal izati=)) at ard 9pm,makong came to pick me up,along with some others,and headed to ming fang had a gatherin dinner.people present-choi choi,benny,gary aka boiboii,marcus,adrain,reggie,yee soon,sheau yea,vicky,van van,ah may,and yours truly of course..tee hee!the food was darn nice!!!!!!took a few pics too..will post it up when i got it from reggie=)

04-went to church early mornin,went to mandy's shop and waited for dearr,headed kb together and hab our breakfast..shopped ard..go to seria agn and hang out the whole noon at shop..kinda fun=)

05-schooled and spent the noon with dearr..

06-schooled and homed

07-schooled,hab lunch with dear at kfc..saw long-time-no-see friend vera yee,she still looked the same to me=p and spent the noon with dear..

08-Day was pissed!!could'nt believe what i saw and heard..was pissed in daylight,now was pissed to the max!between his overly friendy manner and free advertising here and there..i'm still his "passerby-vege" even our relation had been so long..when one knows about this,would you feel GOOD?EXACTLY!!!!!

I was being LIED..took for GRANTED..and treated like a FOOL !!!!!

Once upon a time,there wasd once where all feelings lived :

happiness,sorrow,knowledge etc,including love.One day it was announced to all the feelings that the island would sink.

So all repaired their own boats and left.Love was the only one who stayed.Love wants to presevere untill the last moment possible.When the island is almost sinking,Love decices to asked for help.

richness was passing by in a great boat.Love said"Richness,an you take me with you?" Richness answered "no,i can't.there are alot of gold and silver here in my boat,there is no place for you"

Love decides to ask vanity who was passing by in a beautiful vessel, "Vanity,please help me!" "I can't help you love.you are all wet and might damage my boat!" Vanity answered.

Sorrow was closed by so asked for help,"Sorrow,please let me go with you" but Sorrow answered, "Oh...Love,i am so sad that i need to be myself!" Happiness passed by Love too,but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her!!!

Suddenly,there was a voice, "come Love,i will take you" It was an elder.Love feel so blessed and overjoyed that he even forgets to ask the elder her name.

When they arrive at dry land,Love asked another elder,knowledge.."who helped me?"

"It was time"knowledge answered.

"Time?' asked Love."but why did time help me?" Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "because time is capable of understanding how great love is"

Love is a wonderful feeling and most of us are either in love or secretly admire somebody.but there is one thing about love.It needs time to grow,to mature and to last forever.time teaches many things and heals many scars..

hrm..find it meaningful??i do..and i hope my dear friend mandy thinks so too =)) and hopefully can help her..

eye sore.was in front of the computer for a long time.the weather is lovely for stayin at home.lol~

hrm,a meaningful song is uploaded!!!finally..i get the Right codes for the song..all thanks to kyrie lemme use his program=D and vonnie too..teachin me sum stuff..kekesss..neways von,i still wan the program aitess?

learn to do the moving pics too!!!=D *super happy* wanna learn that for quite awhile,and nw i suceed!!!so so happy..weets..bt den..this i've learned myself,not any help frm kyrie or vonnie..applaud for me yeah..hahass!!

but anywaes,those pics are just for "testing"..it's gonna be there for awhile tho,untill i've sort out evrything and i'lll change all the pics =))

so so tired today=s well,everyday i also will be overtired anyways,wonder if i dun eat enough food for energy,bt den,it seems i eat more and more also?lol~

sch is aiight as usual,today me and julre vry obedient pretend pretend copy notes on the ohp,lol~ ans witness another fight at sch agn,it's already the second fight in thre last 6months..haiss..malay sch,wat cn you do?at least it's nt girls catfight like last tym..hahasss..

todae...HAPPY 13MONTHS ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND DEAR...hehess..another month passed agn,bt i sure wonder how long it gonna last..won't forever this is for sure=s

hrm,suddenly rmb something last nyt,after havin my dinner,spend the whole 3hours chattin with ah fung(my cuz)..we're talkin alot about alot of stuff,and suddenly talked abt how he could'nt recognise me last yr in the shoppin mall..he ask me show some of my pics,show lorh,and i send him one pic,and he was dumbfound!he had no idea btw me and amy,which is me!!!!this kinda family also got hor..sia soi one..hahass..so newayss,he ALMOST got to the point of askin his mommy which is me,till he recognise for himself..den i tell him..

me : fung arh,u take de pic to ee gv her see now..see what she said..
fung : ok..u wait ahh..i call mommy..

awhile later........

fung : WAHHAHAHAHAHAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fung : xin,mommy had no idea who are you!!!!!she asked why i had pretty girls in my pc!!WAHHAHAAA...
me : u go tell ee i'm ur gal gal..see what she say?

awhile later......

fung : xinn...sei 4 lor,mommy keep askin me abt you..i asked her see clearly the pic agn..she keep askin!!my tears really wanna fall frm laughin liao..too bad ah wei nt at home,see mommy's expression!!!
me : wua lan,ee gt so dumbfound o nt orh..*and cnt help laffin hard myself*
fung : u say leh?mommy's face practically blank liao!!!

wua lann..then i go tel my mommy the story maa..in the end,my aunt and mommy CHAT instead of me and fung..-_-" hahass,hrm,that reminds me,hui yi gonna be here for the dec hols,ah wei mayb gonna be here too!!if he's nt goin travellin with his friends,we're discussin a nite in empire *winksss*

just went for dinner at ayamku restaurent with my family just now..sea cucumber claypot is definitely superb!!!dunno when cn i have it agn..=s

hrm..guess 1mr me just gonna slack at home,since dear aint well so he wont come out see me..hrm..missin him ord..kekesss

im tired and definitely sleepy=s sch went on as usual ..guess wut?me and julre got scolded for talkin agn..miss suzy was lyk "ok grace and julre..apparently what you're talkin there is more interesting than what i'm teachin..since what you two wre talkin are more appealin than listenin to my class..would you like to share it with us?we're waitin.." oh shiat..we just kept quiet..bt felt like tellin her..if she really wanna noe what the hell is so interestin..bet when she heard it..she wont think that way!and den ..after awhile..we talked awhile ONI nia,she insulted us "grace and julre,a PRE-U2 student wanna join our PRE-U1 class and jottin down the notes on the ohp,and two of you are acting like you dun hv the care at allin the world.." wua lan..so embrassing man!!sheesshh..

went out with dearr after sch,went to marilyn to have lasagnass,have been cravin for lasagnas quite a while nw,and finally i cn have it..lol~and went back to office and hang out*winks*

newayss..gonna dinner..tata!

went out find mandy at3pm in the end.i just don't feel like being alone,and think of the things which cause me pain..but i never knew,mandy is havin a even harder time than me..she practically looks like she's about to cry from the moment i saw her and the moment i go home=((

went to cosy corner,where it's quiet,air-conditioned,and hav alot of privacy.spilled out her sob story,i really felt so sad for her.i'm having alot of problems myself,but my problems could'nt relate to what someone did to her.comfort her..givin her advices and consolin her as much as i can.

after one hour plus of talkin,and eatin TWO plates of french fries=s we dedice to leave.shopped ard..actually..it's more like i'm walkin ard lookin at things while she's followin me only=s saw some nice clothes and nice stuff toys norhxx=))

she decided to pop into her workin place early..and sat ther for hours and help her work when she's busy...Wees..den ard evenin went home with dad nia...

i'm feelin more better today,at least my mind is off about smth else!but for my dear friend..i'm not so sure..i just hope she could have a good nyt sleep tonyt and quit blamin herself for everything.